Hi guys. I've been working hard on personal development for a while, the last three months big time. I've learnt a lot about myself and how/why I've been using porn and how the addiction is really effecting my life. It's like clarity has really been found. Although edging was my problem for a while, and bar one time of looking at porn thumbnails (yes, pathetic but rationalising)..i have been doing okay (which is massive progress for me!) for a good few weeks/couple of months, although certainly not perfect.
However, last few days I've failed to get hard when intimate with my wife- i am definitely feeling anxious about sex and e.d. I'm also feeling major anxiety and a bit down because of withdrawal, which i try to accept and also to be mindful to ease the anxiety.
Today, Ive been working hard not to repeat past mistakes especially to be aware of triggers as y brain keeps thinking about porn (it is starting to miss it). I was doing well to manage emotions and triggers etc, but this morning I 'got lost' for 5 or 10 minutes and ended up looking at some inapproriate stuff (i guess soft porn at least as far as i am concerned) and acted out.
Despite the 'reality' of the problem, I can still never quite believe it when acting it. I was prepared to go through the hardhip of withdrawal knowing that it will pass, but as i said i kind of got lost and need to pick myself up. This too will take effort to get back to a good place.
However, last few days I've failed to get hard when intimate with my wife- i am definitely feeling anxious about sex and e.d. I'm also feeling major anxiety and a bit down because of withdrawal, which i try to accept and also to be mindful to ease the anxiety.
Today, Ive been working hard not to repeat past mistakes especially to be aware of triggers as y brain keeps thinking about porn (it is starting to miss it). I was doing well to manage emotions and triggers etc, but this morning I 'got lost' for 5 or 10 minutes and ended up looking at some inapproriate stuff (i guess soft porn at least as far as i am concerned) and acted out.
Despite the 'reality' of the problem, I can still never quite believe it when acting it. I was prepared to go through the hardhip of withdrawal knowing that it will pass, but as i said i kind of got lost and need to pick myself up. This too will take effort to get back to a good place.