A sad poem for myself, relapse again.

Most of the time, we always laze around every day.
Sometimes, we are so ambitious, want to do something.
We are as lazy as pigs, but we don't dare to feel at ease as a pig.
We don't have the ability to change the world, we also don't satisfy ourselves.
What sustains us moving forward isn't the light of dreams ahead, it's the dark of abyss behind.
In the end, we are not only unworthy of our ambition?but also fail to live up to the miseries we experienced.

Relapsed again!

I am a serious PMO patient, addicted to BDSM and some creepy videos. I have lost common libido about 8 years ago, my gf cannot turn me on anymore, feel depressed a lot. Now I am going to reboot again, see what will happen. Today is day 1.

Good luck, man. Do you have any specific strategies you are planning to use to give you a different result this time?

no yet, I think the replasing and robooting will happen again and again.
Until I could do regular sex, I am turned on by fedmom, wanna be a nomarl man who turn on by common necked girls.