started reboot at 12 September 2018

Do or die

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hi guys and girls
i am here after relapsing after 147 days.
yes i am relapsed. i doing PM from 5 years. i am frustrated now. suciadal thoughts are  there. i wasted my five years of life. i am unable to quit this addiction please help me.
at this time i have so many urges. i am controlling myself from this second. i need to first change my thinking. first day is always a hard day. so i need to fight it. but anyone here please motivate me and guide me.
 

Fappy

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Ok, first, calm the fuck down!
147 days is a fucking great amount of time without PMO! For that achievement alone you should be proud.
Let's take a step back and assess this before we do anything fucking stupid like self harm as you mentioned.
Over those 147 days of no PMO what strategies and methods did you use to get that far?
This relapse was caused by what trigger?
Just be calm and approach the situation with an objective mind. It doesn't no good to freak the fuck out over this. And the fact that you have been that long without PMO but for whatever reason PMOed again, isn't a relapse in my books. It's just a slip. With a record as good as yours I wouldn't call that a full relapse.
You just tripped over, now get back, get your head straight and focus again. You've done it before  so do it again.
Keep us updated and don't be afraid to tell us everything. We get you and we are here to help.
You are definaltey not alone.
 

Do or die

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when i upset i need porn. i fighting with so many problems last days. in every part of life. because of that i lost my focus and i am relapsed. thanks you for this reply. now i am little bit understood that i did it first and now also its possible. i am used the busy trick in this 147 days. i am always kept myself busy.
 

Fappy

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Ok great now you know what to do!
In what ways were you busy?
Perhaps try a new hobby?
If that was the key before it should work again. All the problems you are facing now, and I'm sorry to hear that you are, will all be made worse by porn. And that's a fact.
 

Do or die

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i only focus on my work. dont think about any other thing this is my trick
at day 3
as i am on rebooting till 147 days i learned that the real life is very different than addictive one.

at day 4
i am doing my best
 

Quitforeverthenwin

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Hope you're doing well! Like Reformed was saying. If you did it once you can do it again. Remind yourself, you can get upset and learn to cope in other new ways.
 

Do or die

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Quitforeverthenwin said:
Hope you're doing well! Like Reformed was saying. If you did it once you can do it again. Remind yourself, you can get upset and learn to cope in other new ways.
thanks
 

Do or die

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Day 11 at sapte. 2018
i am socially anexious any many situations. i need to recover in that also.

Relapsed
 

Do or die

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23 September 2018
Yesterday I am relapsed. After 5 years of PA I learned that this is not good for me. Very bad and today I am going to take a strong decision to not see porn from now. Whatever urges can come I can fight.
today i feeeling very bad but i am doing best.
 

Do or die

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Day 3 at 25th September 2018
Today I am at day 3. Urges are there today. if porn is my problem of life then from today i decide that at any cost porn will never be a part of my life again
 

Do or die

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Day 4 at september 26
today i am completed the pramayama(Yoga). and keeping myself busy in my work

day 5 at sptember 27
today i am at day 5. think about how porn affecting the social things. is porn creating a new bad way of thinking. yes. so start to reboot guys. start to reboot
 

Do or die

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Day 7 at 29 September 2018
Feeling anexity and confused and stressed also. I seen Gabe deans YouTube videos carefully and now I know that this are the withdrewal symptoms and it is normal in rebooting
 

Do or die

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Day 9 at 1 October 2018
I has a WD today . but I know its natural and not a relapse so I am continued my reboot
 

Do or die

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Day 11 at 3 October 2018
No WD today. Feeling good.did anulom vilom pranayama. This pranayama is best for all mental health
 

Do or die

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Day 13 at October 5
No WD . no more stress now. And no strong urges. This 13 days success is very big for me now. Going towards light  from the dark.
 

Fappy

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those are pretty good results for only 13 days. it should only get easier from now, BUT! watch out for those triggers!
 

Do or die

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Reformed Fapper said:
those are pretty good results for only 13 days. it should only get easier from now, BUT! watch out for those triggers!
yes i am always ready to fight with that triggers ;)
 
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