byhisgraceillmakeit
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So long story short, like the title says I'm about 1.5 years into the whole thing and I've made tremendous strides BUT i figured i should feel a lot better that i actually do. So ill quickly list the main issues I'm facing right now...
1. Insomnia is still severely bad. i can't fall asleep on my own anymore with a prescription sleeping pill. and even with that, i don't sleep the entire night.
2. Still flatlined. I do get occasional morning wood after a decent night of sleep (decent meaning about 4.5 hours total, not consecutive, smh). Lately i have even been getting solid boners during the day from thinking about this girl i have been somewhat dating. that happened on the way home from work the other day and i kept the boner a good 10 mins while driving home.
3. I still have these headaches that never went away since April of last year (they last all day long, & the only time i kinda don't feel them is when I'm getting in a good workout)
4. My lung volume and breathing isn't good at all right now. Now I've read a couple guys relate this the rebooting process as a withdrawal symptom too & i kind of believe it. I have asthma and it hasn't really been a concern since i started rebooting.
5 My short term memory is still awful. Its shown some improvements over the stretch but now I'm worried about it because ill be given a more challenging task at work that will require my memory to be sharp and I'm nervous about it.
So those are my main concerns. MY EPIPHANY is this: I set out to initially do hard mode & i failed to do so because i would masturbate ignorantly a few times since i began (I think since i started it was like a total of 8 times). I never viewed porn again since like probably my first or second month into reboot because everyone knows its hard to overcome urges at that early stage. So porn was never an issue again. But thinking back i don't think i did a long enough streak of NO FAP! like my aim was to never do it but i don't think i did a 90 day no cap ever, except MAYBE once. Like i would be doing well not even thinking about doing it, then an urge would over take me & honestly i think it'd happen before 90 days each time, smh. (id have to go back and look at my post to be sure) I last tapped in early february, so now I'm hoping that by me committing to never do it again, like my initial plan, that ill see some major improvements in 90 days (around May). if not I'm really now sure what I'm going to do. Im nervous about losing my job too because of not being able to handle this new task at work.
Like always some advice, comments or questions are always welcomed!
THANKS
1. Insomnia is still severely bad. i can't fall asleep on my own anymore with a prescription sleeping pill. and even with that, i don't sleep the entire night.
2. Still flatlined. I do get occasional morning wood after a decent night of sleep (decent meaning about 4.5 hours total, not consecutive, smh). Lately i have even been getting solid boners during the day from thinking about this girl i have been somewhat dating. that happened on the way home from work the other day and i kept the boner a good 10 mins while driving home.
3. I still have these headaches that never went away since April of last year (they last all day long, & the only time i kinda don't feel them is when I'm getting in a good workout)
4. My lung volume and breathing isn't good at all right now. Now I've read a couple guys relate this the rebooting process as a withdrawal symptom too & i kind of believe it. I have asthma and it hasn't really been a concern since i started rebooting.
5 My short term memory is still awful. Its shown some improvements over the stretch but now I'm worried about it because ill be given a more challenging task at work that will require my memory to be sharp and I'm nervous about it.
So those are my main concerns. MY EPIPHANY is this: I set out to initially do hard mode & i failed to do so because i would masturbate ignorantly a few times since i began (I think since i started it was like a total of 8 times). I never viewed porn again since like probably my first or second month into reboot because everyone knows its hard to overcome urges at that early stage. So porn was never an issue again. But thinking back i don't think i did a long enough streak of NO FAP! like my aim was to never do it but i don't think i did a 90 day no cap ever, except MAYBE once. Like i would be doing well not even thinking about doing it, then an urge would over take me & honestly i think it'd happen before 90 days each time, smh. (id have to go back and look at my post to be sure) I last tapped in early february, so now I'm hoping that by me committing to never do it again, like my initial plan, that ill see some major improvements in 90 days (around May). if not I'm really now sure what I'm going to do. Im nervous about losing my job too because of not being able to handle this new task at work.
Like always some advice, comments or questions are always welcomed!
THANKS
