Tempted
Member
Hi, I am new to this Forum as a user but I have been lurking for quite a while.
I realized that I have a porn addiction once my preferences became immoral in ways I could not accept any more, I am very for expressing your sexuality but I went to a place I never want to return because I cannot imagine how these kinds of sexual preferences are in any way good for me.
My problem now, which many of you probably can relate to, is that I get triggered by literally ANYTHING. On one hand, this could be because our current world is becoming more and more sexualized which I really hate, but also because through my years of porn use (9-21) I just found a way to make anything sexual in some way.
To the best of my recollection, I think I have been actively trying to stop porn use for the past two months but I have yet to manage a longer streak than 3 days which doesn't end in direct descend into the deepest depths of my "preferences". Which is just another proof of my addiction, because I just cannot stop at will.
Finally, I feel like it is hard to find people who really understand how serious I think my condition is, I have one friend who really understands me, maybe two but all the other people seem to not understand that I have an addiction, its not that I just want to stop watching porn because whatever, I am suffering because of porn. So yeah, thanks for reading, it might be good for me to start a journal on here so I will just start with that and see how far I come, tomorrow I have another meeting with my psychologist who has been helping me a great deal already and I will talk to him some more too.
If you read my ramblings, thanks
I realized that I have a porn addiction once my preferences became immoral in ways I could not accept any more, I am very for expressing your sexuality but I went to a place I never want to return because I cannot imagine how these kinds of sexual preferences are in any way good for me.
My problem now, which many of you probably can relate to, is that I get triggered by literally ANYTHING. On one hand, this could be because our current world is becoming more and more sexualized which I really hate, but also because through my years of porn use (9-21) I just found a way to make anything sexual in some way.
To the best of my recollection, I think I have been actively trying to stop porn use for the past two months but I have yet to manage a longer streak than 3 days which doesn't end in direct descend into the deepest depths of my "preferences". Which is just another proof of my addiction, because I just cannot stop at will.
Finally, I feel like it is hard to find people who really understand how serious I think my condition is, I have one friend who really understands me, maybe two but all the other people seem to not understand that I have an addiction, its not that I just want to stop watching porn because whatever, I am suffering because of porn. So yeah, thanks for reading, it might be good for me to start a journal on here so I will just start with that and see how far I come, tomorrow I have another meeting with my psychologist who has been helping me a great deal already and I will talk to him some more too.
If you read my ramblings, thanks