Hello,
I?ve been married for 15yrs and about 10 months ago my wife realized I had a problem with porn. I told her I would get help. The problem probably had occurred 10yrs before that if not even further back, but I had refused to accept it as a problem. I bounced around from everything, Craigslist ads to webcams to gay, straight porn & forums of all kinds
I really felt good about getting better. My wife had a tracker on my phone to monitor me. And yet 3 weeks ago I ruined it by going to sites despite knowing she was watching me! How foolish am I? And then she continued monitoring me and gave me a chance again. She left the house and I used the laptop to try to access porn again. Of course she hadn?t told me the laptop was monitored but I knew something was wrong when Xvideos was blocked. And I still kept searching for porn! She called me in tears and made me leave the house. I knew something was wrong with the sites being blocked and yet continued to try to access them. I reset my clock on the 6th of OCT.
It was the laptop that lulled me into a sense of security. I feel so stupid as if I can?t think for myself
I?ve been married for 15yrs and about 10 months ago my wife realized I had a problem with porn. I told her I would get help. The problem probably had occurred 10yrs before that if not even further back, but I had refused to accept it as a problem. I bounced around from everything, Craigslist ads to webcams to gay, straight porn & forums of all kinds
I really felt good about getting better. My wife had a tracker on my phone to monitor me. And yet 3 weeks ago I ruined it by going to sites despite knowing she was watching me! How foolish am I? And then she continued monitoring me and gave me a chance again. She left the house and I used the laptop to try to access porn again. Of course she hadn?t told me the laptop was monitored but I knew something was wrong when Xvideos was blocked. And I still kept searching for porn! She called me in tears and made me leave the house. I knew something was wrong with the sites being blocked and yet continued to try to access them. I reset my clock on the 6th of OCT.
It was the laptop that lulled me into a sense of security. I feel so stupid as if I can?t think for myself