Six weeks No P; 9 days no O

Tomorrow will be six weeks since I looked at porn.

I did have three nights where my wife and I fooled around and I made myself cum.  Last one was 9 days ago.

I've since decided that I should have started with No P, No M, and No O, even if I'm with my wife, so I reset my counter after that last night.

So 9 days so far, no PMO.

Still have little to no feeling in my penis.  Small, and absolutely nothing even close to any erections.

Anxiety is through the roof.  I'm about to have a panic attack today.  Depressed as shit too.

Sleep is pretty terrible.  Can't fall asleep for a long time, then I wake up 3-4 times in the night.  (I also have this weird leg-spasm thing)

Libido is very low, except when my wife and I cuddle and kiss.  I get pretty turned on, but again, zero life to the penis. 

I still have very little confidence this is going to work, but I'm not going to give up.  No P, No M, No O until either things get better or I die....  Don't want to go back.

This is incredibly frustrating.  I'm frustrated that I didn't start with hard mode.  I'm frustrated that I seem to be stuck in this flatline.  I'm frustrated that I'm seeing no improvement what so ever.

Just really frustrated.

Don't let your wife suffer just because you can't get hard, focus on her O. Besides, having an orgasm with your wife doesn't affect anything negatively unless it leads you back to porn, no porn no problem. Others will no doubt disagree, but they're welcome to, that's just my thinking on it. Some of my longest streaks were right after having sex. Just don't be afraid to try different approaches, not everyone is the same.

She came twice all three nights.

I feel like I took a step back because I had to finish with my hand, therefore I'm going hardmode.

No P, no M, no O.

57yrold said:

She came twice all three nights.

I feel like I took a step back because I had to finish with my hand, therefore I'm going hardmode.

No P, no M, no O.

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Apparently older people are supposed to recover more quickly, so you might have things on your side.

I'm 3 months in (almost), and I have O'd a few times - but it's nothing near as bad as porn.

I have read the research, and stories. The conclusion is to eliminate or drastically reduce O for at least 3 months.

So don't be too hard on yourself for O, just as long as it's not to porn.

This morning, I had morning wood. First time in ages. I also had a wet dream last night. I can't remember the last time these things happened.

There is hope, but unfortunately we can't look at this on a daily basis because progress is slow for this condition.

We should zoom out a bit and only check progress on a monthly basis.

But I have to also agree with you, at the start, it's REALLY depressing. In fact, I still feel that way. I feel like half of my soul has left my body.

It won't stop me from fighting and never going back to porn, but I agree, it's difficult.

it is gonna be ok eventually
just don't ever return to pornography
never in yor life