Everything was fine. 140+ days streak.
I live with my gf so I don't feel lonely often.
It happened once. I was without her for a weekend and I relapsed. And now I have a hard time having more than 3-4 days streaks.
I look at images when she's at school. That sucks...
I did worse: I started talking to girls on an app thats purpose is to sell clothes between users... and... got some nudes from two of them... The shameful part is: for one of the two, I paid. God...
After 3 years of relationship I started doubting my attractiveness. I basically didn't exist to girls anymore except from my girlfriend. It felt bad. I felt lonely more often in the last 2 weeks than in the previous 6 months.
I started doubting myself and wondering if girl thought I am attractive. I still don't know. I just wanted to feel attracting to girls and receive nudes like I used to when I was younger and single..
Recently I've spent far too much time, hidden, browsing this app. I just deleted my account after trying for hours to get unbanned (yeah, I got banned and it was deserved, this is not a dating app, what a perv am I..)
I feel... strange? Not shitty but strange. I also did this to avoid a difficult situation I'm in professionally. I'm late on a project and the next one starts in a week... I should spend all my time working, I spend it on sexy pictures instead, I feel like giving up, I'll never be on time and this will have shitty consequences: I'll have to work all weekends..
What the fuck was I thinking... I deserve much better than this. My girlfriend also do. Of course I am attractive! No need to ask strangers for nudes on apps that arent meant to this at all! I deleted everything, the pictures, the account.
Gosh writing it feels good... I'm not the loser I've been in the last few days!
Much love to all my struggling brothers here. You guys are the best. You're on the right track. Keep going
I live with my gf so I don't feel lonely often.
It happened once. I was without her for a weekend and I relapsed. And now I have a hard time having more than 3-4 days streaks.
I look at images when she's at school. That sucks...
I did worse: I started talking to girls on an app thats purpose is to sell clothes between users... and... got some nudes from two of them... The shameful part is: for one of the two, I paid. God...
After 3 years of relationship I started doubting my attractiveness. I basically didn't exist to girls anymore except from my girlfriend. It felt bad. I felt lonely more often in the last 2 weeks than in the previous 6 months.
I started doubting myself and wondering if girl thought I am attractive. I still don't know. I just wanted to feel attracting to girls and receive nudes like I used to when I was younger and single..
Recently I've spent far too much time, hidden, browsing this app. I just deleted my account after trying for hours to get unbanned (yeah, I got banned and it was deserved, this is not a dating app, what a perv am I..)
I feel... strange? Not shitty but strange. I also did this to avoid a difficult situation I'm in professionally. I'm late on a project and the next one starts in a week... I should spend all my time working, I spend it on sexy pictures instead, I feel like giving up, I'll never be on time and this will have shitty consequences: I'll have to work all weekends..
What the fuck was I thinking... I deserve much better than this. My girlfriend also do. Of course I am attractive! No need to ask strangers for nudes on apps that arent meant to this at all! I deleted everything, the pictures, the account.
Gosh writing it feels good... I'm not the loser I've been in the last few days!
Much love to all my struggling brothers here. You guys are the best. You're on the right track. Keep going