Hi Hypno. I knew you are going through very hard situation but don't lose hope. Sometimes withdrawals of p addiction tricks you, it makes you slave of p but keep fighting. Invest your energy in positive work like meditation, exercising etc. Just belief in yourself and don't win this evil over your soul. Every one falls, relapsed but one thing that change is to get back and keep punching your problems, p addiction, withdrawals. YOU CAN DO IT BROTHER.