Here we go

Alright so I've been trying to quit for about 3 years.

I must say that while I have most certainly cut down on masturbation and porn from jerking off everyday once  or twice, my goal has always been to give it up FOR GOOD, and that never worked out.

I have never ever told anyone about this problem so accountability is a new thing for me. In fact I am here right now because I just relapsed.

I absolutely HATE looking at porn. I recently turned 18 and I want to get this shit together.

Starting tomorrow(which will be day 1) I will start logging my No POM journey here.

After a year of this, I will stop logging in.

Day 1 was smooth sailing. I had a weak urge that was put out easily. It's always been like this though at the early days. However this time, the case will be different.

As far as what I did today(which plays a big part in keeping me away from porn) was focusing on creating music and practicing guitar.I also realized that while I can sing and scream while playing guitar(I play and make mostly metal), it doesn't sound good as when I do them separately. I noticed this because I actually recorded it myself.

This of course set me off a bit(Trigger) but I accepted reality and decided the best thing to do is work on improving. Rather than masturbate alone in a room while staring at pixels for a thrill.

Day 2 went quite well too. Didn't really have any urges today.Almost the entire family was home and I mainly spent most of time working on music.

Day 3


Not too bad. Still doing well. Nothing changed much from days 2 and 1.

Day 4 was terrible.
Aside from not having accomplished much today, I woke up at night with this ridiculous boner and ended up jerking it a bit. I never ejaculated. It's kind of funny because I was in complete animal mode. Another thing is that I opened youtube and went into some soft-core videos and jerked it once again.  I stopped quickly.

I will turn this around tomorrow. Accomplish more, No naughty youtube vids or midnight wanks, and I will approach a cute girl tomorrow and ask her out(In college there's a lot). Along with some other social shennanigans.

Day 5 was better than day 4. The urge has gotten weaker, and I  didn't watch anything sexual on youtube. I practiced a lot and did a lot of songwriting and composition with my younger brother. I was supposed to go to college and approach a girl, but the academy I'm in in college postponed the semester starting till next monday. So that'll be next week.

Great day. I had an urge to enter a porn website, but I didn't. So that was great. I feel great. In control.

Well... I just woke up to what is now day 1 again.
I woke up at the night of day 6 and unfortunately I forgot to put my phone away before I slept. So I woke up with this intense erection and started masturbating and it was easy to grab the phone and open up some p.
How am I feeling though?
Not too bad actually. I mean, I slept afterwards and woke up fine. Not too low on energy, not feeling like shit. There's no time to feel like shit. 
I've made a mistake and I will learn from it and that is that. I am not going to feel weak or bad because I relapsed. I feel very good today.
Day 1, here we go (again)

Thats a great attitude man! Keep it up don't relapsed now. 

pruthukkc said:

Thats a great attitude man! Keep it up don't relapsed now. 

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Thanks a lot man! Really appreciate it.

Day 1 was a great day, but I kept them at bay. I worked out, took a cold shower, practiced and wrote music non-stop, and I didn't let my relapse change the way I would go on about my day.

Hey dude! Keep it up! It'll be worth it in the end!

LifeUnchained said:

Hey dude! Keep it up! It'll be worth it in the end!

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Thanks dude! Fuck yea it'll be worth it.  8)

I relapsed again.

The problem?

I forgot my rules.

I have a set of things I'm supposed to implement to make it harder for myself to give in to porn and masturbation.

The one that set me off today was ending up in a closed room by myself. Today, when my brother(roommate) went to take a shower, I forgot to keep the door open, and that's how I relapsed.

I must say that I felt like shit when that happened. I even considered to stop logging in my progress here. But fuck that.


I'm going to keep trying until the end of time, and until it works(I quit for good) I'll be here keeping track of every single day.

Today was fantastic. I felt really good all day.

I relapsed on February 17th, badly and twice.

Yesterday was day 1 and today is day 2.

Day 1 was great. It was really easy because my brother was home and he is my roommate.

Day 2 is today,I went to college. I went with the intention to talk to any pretty girl I saw. I saw lots of them, yet I didn't do that. I froze. Multiple times. It was terrible, like being stuck in a moving body but having no control over it.

I was giving too much of a shit. Too much of a shit what the girl might think of me or the people around me may. The thing is that I do some pretty weird shit in public, and when I'm with my friends I do a lot of that and don't get embarrassed or scared. But today,was an eyeopener, I need to destroy this fear. I want to have sexual relationships with women, that is not going to happen by itself. Tomorrow I will talk to the first 3 pretty girls I see. I'll be honest and I won't give a FLYING FUCK what ANYONE thinks of me.


Day 2 mother fuckers, here we go!


EDIT: okay that didn't turn out well. Back to day 1(tomorrow)

do not relapse at any cost. resist your urges . then you will be rebooted. congrats brother ..keep going