My Journey to becoming better version of myself
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Day 1
At the moment,I am feeling Okay
I had few urges at around about 10am.
I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away
One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.
Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.
Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life
At the moment,I am feeling Okay
I had few urges at around about 10am.
I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away
One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.
Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.
Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life
Day 1
At the moment,I am feeling Okay
I had few urges at around about 10am.
I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away
One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.
Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.
Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life
At the moment,I am feeling Okay
I had few urges at around about 10am.
I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away
One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.
Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.
Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life
Day 2
Relapsed!Relapsed due to Boredom! watched a bit if porn in the morning due to boredom and thought that i could get away with watching it just a liitle bit.But No! i ended up watching porn during whole day and then fapped at night.Felt like a shit afterwards.It is a real Trap.Lesson learned peaking = Relapsed.So no more peaking.
Relapsed!Relapsed due to Boredom! watched a bit if porn in the morning due to boredom and thought that i could get away with watching it just a liitle bit.But No! i ended up watching porn during whole day and then fapped at night.Felt like a shit afterwards.It is a real Trap.Lesson learned peaking = Relapsed.So no more peaking.
Day 1
Today i am feeling OK
I did not had any urges today.
I am leaving porn because this shit is disgusting.Girls are being raped and tortured and used as fuck objrcts in thia shit.Watching it means supporting and the more you watch the more you will Go deep into this shithole.My tastes are already becoming too extreme.No more Porn!
Today i am feeling OK
I did not had any urges today.
I am leaving porn because this shit is disgusting.Girls are being raped and tortured and used as fuck objrcts in thia shit.Watching it means supporting and the more you watch the more you will Go deep into this shithole.My tastes are already becoming too extreme.No more Porn!
Day 2
It was pretty decent day.
I had few urges today.Inface,for a moment i convinced myself that i should watch porn and fap because it wont hurt but then i realized that its my addiction that is talking to me and this one fap is what has been causing me social anxiety and Nervousness ehennunder a little pressure. So i stopped.
I am quitting PMo because i want to be calm and relaxed in pressure situations and also while socializing.
Today i did exercise in the morning.
Another day towards becoming best version of myself.
Message to myself:-
Always remember that failure is a choice and nobody forces you to fail.So keep making right choices and dont give any fucks.
It was pretty decent day.
I had few urges today.Inface,for a moment i convinced myself that i should watch porn and fap because it wont hurt but then i realized that its my addiction that is talking to me and this one fap is what has been causing me social anxiety and Nervousness ehennunder a little pressure. So i stopped.
I am quitting PMo because i want to be calm and relaxed in pressure situations and also while socializing.
Today i did exercise in the morning.
Another day towards becoming best version of myself.
Message to myself:-
Always remember that failure is a choice and nobody forces you to fail.So keep making right choices and dont give any fucks.
Day 2
Relapsed.Relapsed After waking up at night after sleeping.Tried very hard not to fap.infact took a cold shower and did 20 pushups but still couldn't sleep.Ended up masturbating in the bathroom after getting naked.Still could not sleep so started watching porn and fapped once more in the morning.
Lessons learnt:-
1 Do not use internet at night.
2 Never ever get naked at night when i am alone.
Relapsed.Relapsed After waking up at night after sleeping.Tried very hard not to fap.infact took a cold shower and did 20 pushups but still couldn't sleep.Ended up masturbating in the bathroom after getting naked.Still could not sleep so started watching porn and fapped once more in the morning.
Lessons learnt:-
1 Do not use internet at night.
2 Never ever get naked at night when i am alone.
Day 3
A good day
Had a few at afternoon.watched porn for few minutes but then realized wtf i was doing and stopped.
Was feeling tired from yesterday's exercise but did my handstand practice anyway.
Today i found that a big trigger for me is being alone and using internet aimlessly.these two things combine more than not cause me to relapse.so avoid these.
A good day
Had a few at afternoon.watched porn for few minutes but then realized wtf i was doing and stopped.
Was feeling tired from yesterday's exercise but did my handstand practice anyway.
Today i found that a big trigger for me is being alone and using internet aimlessly.these two things combine more than not cause me to relapse.so avoid these.
pruthukkc
Active Member
Come on MR M. You can change your habit. When you got urges try to meditate or do some push ups it helps so much, don't try to control your mind, try to focus on your breathing. Meditation is real medicine on porn, 1 week without pm is really tough but you have to strong reason to kick this addiction. You can do it man ! 
Day 13
Today was a very boring and lazy.
Didn't went to university due to Some reasons.
Did RR in morning.
Stayed lazy during whole day and had very intense urges during afternoon.These urges didn't went away after 2 hours.So i was about to pmo then realized how toxic this shit is.So went to bathroom and took a cold shower.
Urges went away and felt like a beast.
Things i need to do.:-
1-Go to university daily
2-stick to a tight sleep schedule(10pm-6am)
3-Decrease time on TV and internet.
4-Do not give much fuck about things that don't matter in reallity.
5-Keep a nice beard.
Benefits that i have experinced so far:-
1 Socially active
2 Confidence pretty high
3 High motivation
4 Better and healthy skin
5 Smooth hairs
6 Hairs grow quickly (especially beard)
7 No Brain fog.
8 Becoming an extrovert.
9 People want to talk to me(eapecially strangers).
Today was a very boring and lazy.
Didn't went to university due to Some reasons.
Did RR in morning.
Stayed lazy during whole day and had very intense urges during afternoon.These urges didn't went away after 2 hours.So i was about to pmo then realized how toxic this shit is.So went to bathroom and took a cold shower.
Urges went away and felt like a beast.
Things i need to do.:-
1-Go to university daily
2-stick to a tight sleep schedule(10pm-6am)
3-Decrease time on TV and internet.
4-Do not give much fuck about things that don't matter in reallity.
5-Keep a nice beard.
Benefits that i have experinced so far:-
1 Socially active
2 Confidence pretty high
3 High motivation
4 Better and healthy skin
5 Smooth hairs
6 Hairs grow quickly (especially beard)
7 No Brain fog.
8 Becoming an extrovert.
9 People want to talk to me(eapecially strangers).
Day 16
Having intense urges tonight.
mind wants to fap badly
Everything seems about sex.
These are probably withdrawl symptoms..
But i ain't fapping.Because this shit has caused me huge social anxiety and is the reason why i haven't been able to pursue goals.
Morever,This shit has caused me brain fog which prevents me from thinking straight and i become introvert.
Having intense urges tonight.
mind wants to fap badly
Everything seems about sex.
These are probably withdrawl symptoms..
But i ain't fapping.Because this shit has caused me huge social anxiety and is the reason why i haven't been able to pursue goals.
Morever,This shit has caused me brain fog which prevents me from thinking straight and i become introvert.
DAY 22
Relapsed.
Feeling like complete shit and a failure.Porn Beat me again.
It Tricked me into thinking that It is good and watching it a bit ain't gonna hurt.But gotta Remember that whenever i Get the urge to open that site then i am very close to relapse so i should take a cold shower and Stop being lazy.
This Relapse was caused by two things.
1) I was Becoming very lazy during last few days.Wasn't taking cold showers,doing exercise fully etc. so i relapsed.
2) Peaking.
My Mind tricked me into thinking that watching porn with people urinating wasn't gonna hurt. But i have to remember that pee is urine and there is a reason it goes down the toilet.The reason is that it is human wastage and ugly stink.So doing anything with piss makes me Weak cuck.
Now I need not to relapse again.This gets easier after 10 days or so.
I have two simple goals for the rest of November.
1) Take cold shower daily because they help immensely to get rid of horniness and urges
2) Wake up earlyand Be productive
Relapsed.
Feeling like complete shit and a failure.Porn Beat me again.
It Tricked me into thinking that It is good and watching it a bit ain't gonna hurt.But gotta Remember that whenever i Get the urge to open that site then i am very close to relapse so i should take a cold shower and Stop being lazy.
This Relapse was caused by two things.
1) I was Becoming very lazy during last few days.Wasn't taking cold showers,doing exercise fully etc. so i relapsed.
2) Peaking.
My Mind tricked me into thinking that watching porn with people urinating wasn't gonna hurt. But i have to remember that pee is urine and there is a reason it goes down the toilet.The reason is that it is human wastage and ugly stink.So doing anything with piss makes me Weak cuck.
Now I need not to relapse again.This gets easier after 10 days or so.
I have two simple goals for the rest of November.
1) Take cold shower daily because they help immensely to get rid of horniness and urges
2) Wake up earlyand Be productive