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Road to recovery
« on: April 18, 2017, 02:52:05 PM »
1.Name: Chris
2. Day Counter :10
3.Age 23
 
Story: I started finding and watching porn at 19 years of age.
I guess you can call me a late bloomer... I used to be this charming high schooler who got his share of girls. Ever since I graduated high school (2012) later that year I made the biggest mistake in my life and discovered porn.. It became a habit so bad that it was destroying my life... My social life with women, friends, family.... I was losing respect from my boys because I couldnt get females at all like I used to and was to shy and didn't have any social skills to talk to them... I also noticed my soldier getting lifeless and weak and would shrivel.. That's when I decided to quit... Been failing for 3 years straight.
 I found Reboot nation and Yourbrainonporn the beginning of last year and thats when I stated watching Reboot Nation videos and reading and learning on YBOP reading success stories and etc.. Now I have started my reboot process once more and trying to make it my last!! Im more determined than ever and now more educated about the flatline and how the brain  will crave and try to negotiate.. But I will stick with it and just block it out... On Week 2 and I will succeed this time.. If the women aint real than no deal

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #1 on: April 18, 2017, 04:07:15 PM »
Good for you man. You'll get there as long as you stay resolved. Keeping a journal definitely helps. Keeping in contact with other like minded individuals also definitely helps.
There's also an app that's trying to socialize the reboot process. It's free and it's called rTribe. Maybe you could check it out. It has a few nifty features if you really need someone to talk to!
If you ever install the app, my user handle there is "bail" so feel free to add me as a friend!


Join me on rTribe, my user handle is bail
I have a blog about quitting porn, with tips on how to quit and rebuild yourself as well. Visit me here: Blog about beating porn addiction

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #2 on: April 19, 2017, 01:03:18 AM »
Thanks!!! Definitely focused.. I shall be posting the rest of my week in my journal also.. I will try the app too..... Just a quick question... Did you watch tv during your reboot? Or YouTube videos? I usually keep up on my comicbook movie news and tv shows.. Should I avoid them?

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #3 on: April 19, 2017, 04:00:52 AM »
Thanks!!! Definitely focused.. I shall be posting the rest of my week in my journal also.. I will try the app too..... Just a quick question... Did you watch tv during your reboot? Or YouTube videos? I usually keep up on my comicbook movie news and tv shows.. Should I avoid them?

Yes I just continued everything else in my life at first. Now, as it happens, I happened across this very question on quora.com a while ago. And the answer that was voted most popular there (can't find it again right now, but I'll look some more later), was that if you really want to evaluate how you spend your time, it's easier to turn over your entire habit system of spending your free time. That will make you think about what you do and what you spend time on.
For me personally, I always find that a big bang is easier to integrate a new habit than trying to change just this one thing.

But it's up to you really. If your tv programs and youtube videos don't trigger you, then there is little harm in it. Just as long as you don't start using those as porn substitutes ...
Join me on rTribe, my user handle is bail
I have a blog about quitting porn, with tips on how to quit and rebuild yourself as well. Visit me here: Blog about beating porn addiction

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #4 on: April 19, 2017, 05:17:05 AM »
Ok thanks! In my head I thought that would be a negative but just wasn't sure.. I will post how my day went later tonight..

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #5 on: April 19, 2017, 08:21:55 PM »
Day 11: Today was a solid day I guess felt so tired and ddrained took a nap then went to work.. This day flew by.. Just a ordinary day lol cant say much

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #6 on: April 21, 2017, 05:52:54 AM »
Day 12 April 20th: Had a rough start of the day... Had an argument with my folks.. Was stressing heavy but kept the reboot going.. Like I said nothing is gonna stop me this time no matter what... Think I went into flatline also.  I don't mind the flatline process. The urges temporarily go away and I use that to motivate me to  keep going... The day got better towards the afternoon though. Went to work and the ladies kept staring at me.. I guess your more attractive when your not beating your meat every day lol

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #7 on: April 22, 2017, 07:43:59 AM »
Day 13 April 21st: This day was interesting.. I woke up early still in the flatline so I used that to motivate me into having a productive day... Went to work tried talking to people more and it became a lil easier to be social... Still I know I have a log way to go and the road to recovery is still a long journey.. Came back home that night and slept like a baby.. On to face the next day...

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« Reply #8 on: April 24, 2017, 10:24:32 AM »
Day 14 April 22nd: Was a pretty chill day didnt do much except go to work.. But when I did I was actually socializing something I struggled doing for 4 1/2 years.. Went to sleep and had crazy horny dreams... I actually dreamed that I relapsed and feeling awful about myself... Then when I woke up in the middle of the night was so relieved that it was a dream.. That just gave me more motivation to keep going down the rebooting path..
Day 15 April 23rd.. Was in such a good mood today went to work which was a busy day but I didn't mind... Not sure if I was in the flatline still because one moment it felt like I was then the other I felt my libido high and horniness... Went to the grinder shop after work and got me a sandwich and wwnt home to watch the nba playoffs.. Later went outside to help my mom cut some branches.. Overall another productive day...

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #9 on: April 24, 2017, 08:23:10 PM »
Day 16: Was sick today and felt weak so was in the bed fof the majority of the day and still had porn flashbacks but I successfully resisted them..  Everytime you resist your one step closer to your goal...  Not much happened today obviously.. Will post how my day went tommorow.

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #10 on: April 25, 2017, 10:55:31 AM »
Hey man,

Well done for pushing through the 2 week mark.

When your feeling ready it might be worth sharing what your going through with a family member or close friend. Myself and others here have found it can be a really positive step forward.

Anyhow, keep it up 

Way   

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #11 on: April 25, 2017, 11:52:31 AM »
Thanks bruh and dope!! The farthest ive ever got was 29 days last summer... Im looking to blow that out the water and go all the way!!! We got this bro!! I probably will tell a family member later on during the reboot.. Interested about hearing your story aswell

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #12 on: April 27, 2017, 09:29:54 AM »
Day 19: These past few days been feeling good as far as my confidence... I feel I just need to get out more.. Besides work ive been staying home and keeping busy there like washing dishes. Doing laundry, cleaning rooms etc... Tonight im going out with a few of the homies tonight to chill and catch up.. Its been awhile.. Especially since its spring time and its nice outside... Overall looking forward to the future

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #13 on: April 27, 2017, 12:14:40 PM »
Hey dude keep up the good work. Similar position as you....had great years in high school....got with loads of girls. But my downfall came when I came into college had my own laptop, own room...recipe for disaster!! Last few years were tough....I was like really popular in school and in college I retreated into a shell of my former self. Thankfully things are turning around again...got a gf who is cool with the ED and just hanging in there with this streak!

Good luck man

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #14 on: April 27, 2017, 01:14:27 PM »
Thanks bro!! Thats exactly how I felt.. Couldn't have said it any better.. Hopefully I will meet a girl during this reboot process.. We just gotta keep it up and stay focused.. We got this bruh!!

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #15 on: April 28, 2017, 04:51:56 AM »
Day 20: Just woke up and holy shit I woke up horny as hell... Had so many dreams about porn like wtf.. Lol I probably would of been close to relapse a couple months back but like I said nothing is gonna stop me from my goal... Got up and started lifting weights while listening to motivational music.. Welp cant go back to sleep now so guess its time to start my day

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #16 on: April 30, 2017, 02:06:19 AM »
Great job man
you should be on day 22 by now. you finished 3rd week. I think first month is the hardest of them all. but we should never give up.
keep going man.
good job  ;)

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #17 on: May 01, 2017, 07:10:40 AM »
Thanks man and starting day 23 today... On week 4 and determined and motivated to keep going!!

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #18 on: May 01, 2017, 10:39:26 PM »
Less than a half hour to day 24.. Fell asleep during the day and woke up so horny so venting on here so I won't get anywhere close to thinking about relapsing.. So far from my past experiences week 4 is definitely the hardest for me.. Never got past it.. The closest was 28 days which would be the end of week 4.. But not only looking to blow that out the water but focused and determined to go all the way.. Now I have nothing to do in the middle of the night.. Not a good scenario.. Hit some friends up though its late but whatever I have to do to keep my mind off porn/masturbation.. Wish me luck!!!

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #19 on: May 04, 2017, 06:34:14 AM »
Day 26: So I'm 3 days away from tying my longest streak ever at 29 days last summer.. So excited for it, my confidence has been through the roof.. Dont give two shits what people have to say about me and if I do im motivated to prove them wrong and see the look on thier faces... Still have a long path ahead of me.. But after 4 long years i'm finally ready and committed to conquer anything in my way for months to come..

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #20 on: May 07, 2017, 07:08:26 AM »
So I finally tied my longest streak!! 29 days!! Starting week 5 today!! Lets see how today goes.. Went out last night to the club with the homies.. Dancing with girls felt so good rewiring with real women.. Now its time to keep the streak going!! Still a long path ahead of me

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #21 on: May 08, 2017, 10:42:40 AM »
Day 30!!! I have now broke my all time record!! This is fantastic.. Still have a long way to go but the changes Ive noticed so far is definitely more confidence in myself and more motivation to be great!! My mindset and will is like never before right now.. All those relapses and failures made me great!! If anybody relapses thats part of the journey, it's what you learn from the relapses and how you bounce back.. Good Luck rebooters..

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« Reply #22 on: May 09, 2017, 08:37:13 PM »
Day 31: Woke up and took my daily morning walk around the neighborhood.. Feels so good and a good replacement for watching porn in the morning... Came back had a healthy breakfast and realized I entered the flatline again.. No worries I'll use low libido as motivation to keep going!! Like Gabe said in one of his videos.. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable... Went to work and wasn't aa social as last week but over succeeding at work which is good... Came home and watching the NBA playoffs as we speak.. Then off to bed.. Been having dreams about porn and relapsing all the time.. Thank god its just a dream when I wake up.. I think my brain doesn't umderstand that porn and fapping are no more.. But ill be patient.. I was told after 90 days the urges go away so we shall see.  Til next time ✌

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #23 on: May 14, 2017, 07:17:38 PM »
So today I started Week 6!! Day 36: This is a huge milestone for me.. Never knew I would break my own record with 7more days of no pmo... I'm focused and even more motivated before.. Probably my whole life to be honest... I'm still in the flatline and thank god i'm educated about it or I would of been freaked out.. But i'm using it to keeep me motivated.. Can't wait until I get out of it tho lol.. For all the rebooters good luck!! Until next time ✌

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Re: Road to recovery
« Reply #24 on: May 14, 2017, 10:33:53 PM »
Hi man, glad you are reaching 36 days right now, Im in 27. Feel proud of myself, I think that you too. Greetings from LATAM and keep going forward.