Hi guys,
I did tried to reboot many times, and I have even been able to go sober for 6 months or so, getting to the point where I was restored, I had my life and my libido back, but then suddenly screwed up and PMO'ed again for whatever reasons (frustration, boredom, ....) and now I'm here back again, starting the journey from day1.
When rebooted in the past I learned a lot and I took to tie to read and watch videos, which really helps.
Never journaled anyways, so this time I will try this too, with the hope that would give me another tool to fight this evil side of myself.
Anyways: 1 week in. The flatline kicked in right away, I'm already in the dead dick phase, but my brain is screaming and constantly urges me to watch porn or do something that would excite it.
Also, brain fog and lack of concentration are huge, I have been struggling doing my job and keep up with it.
Anyways I made it. 1 week where I rarely touched myself, never O but just couple of times have been edging, which I should avoid, I know, but at least I saw my dick responding a little bit and also had to give my brain a little space.
Entering week 2, I hope I will be able to keep journaling at least once a week, at the beginning of it.
Goal for week2:
- Meditating every morning ( I use HeadSpace) - it helps but I need consistency
- Work out at least 4 times (even just a 30 min run will be helpful)
- Praying everyday for myself and for the goal I want to reach, hopefully being strong enough to go through the withdraws
- Go to a nutritionist and start a diet - It will help my brain rebalance.
It's hard guys, it's hard not having our brain aligned with our body and spirit, but there is light at the end of the tunnel, we just need to be brave and strong to get there. The light will just show us the best version of ourselves and the best part of our lives.
Ask me anything if you want. I'd really love to hear thought of any type from anybody while I go through this again.
Peace
I did tried to reboot many times, and I have even been able to go sober for 6 months or so, getting to the point where I was restored, I had my life and my libido back, but then suddenly screwed up and PMO'ed again for whatever reasons (frustration, boredom, ....) and now I'm here back again, starting the journey from day1.
When rebooted in the past I learned a lot and I took to tie to read and watch videos, which really helps.
Never journaled anyways, so this time I will try this too, with the hope that would give me another tool to fight this evil side of myself.
Anyways: 1 week in. The flatline kicked in right away, I'm already in the dead dick phase, but my brain is screaming and constantly urges me to watch porn or do something that would excite it.
Also, brain fog and lack of concentration are huge, I have been struggling doing my job and keep up with it.
Anyways I made it. 1 week where I rarely touched myself, never O but just couple of times have been edging, which I should avoid, I know, but at least I saw my dick responding a little bit and also had to give my brain a little space.
Entering week 2, I hope I will be able to keep journaling at least once a week, at the beginning of it.
Goal for week2:
- Meditating every morning ( I use HeadSpace) - it helps but I need consistency
- Work out at least 4 times (even just a 30 min run will be helpful)
- Praying everyday for myself and for the goal I want to reach, hopefully being strong enough to go through the withdraws
- Go to a nutritionist and start a diet - It will help my brain rebalance.
It's hard guys, it's hard not having our brain aligned with our body and spirit, but there is light at the end of the tunnel, we just need to be brave and strong to get there. The light will just show us the best version of ourselves and the best part of our lives.
Ask me anything if you want. I'd really love to hear thought of any type from anybody while I go through this again.
Peace