46 yrs old and addicted since 13

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FreedSoul

Member
Hi all,

I've been trying to get off porn for probably 10 years.  I know I have an addiction but it is so strong from over 33 years of use. 

I'm married to my high school sweetheart and we have been together for over 20 years.  Sex has always been good but I just recently started seeing the effects of PIED.

Last year after reading YOur brain on Porn I was able to stop for over 3 months but have not tried stopping since.

Now after reading Unchained's log I'm going to try again.
 
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harry

Active Member
Hey FreedSoul,

Welcome to the forum. You're in the right place for recovery and support.

I suggest you read all you can, watch the videos, and listen to porn free radio. Cold showers, while it sounds crazy, can really help lift your spirit.

Keep us posted on your progress and your struggles.

Stay strong!
 
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FreedSoul

Member
Thanks for the words of wisdom Harry.  I always find the first week the easiest for me.  It moving to the 2nd and 3rd and....  you get the picture.  My goal is to come here before the next urge hits me.

 
Brooklyn Jerry

Brooklyn Jerry

Active Member
This is a great place to go to when you feel you might give in to urge. As for PIED. I am 20 years older and had noticed that a few times I couldn't stay hard when having sex. I went to a clinic that dealt with this problem. I tried pills and injections in the penis,they worked fine, although I lost some sensation,and the spontinaety factor. I found this site and will say not JO made things work fine. Funny thing the dr. At the cliinic during a one hour interview didn't ask or mention masturbation once. Good luck.
 
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FreedSoul

Member
Hi Jerry,

thanks for the information.  Thankfully I found this site before I went down the road of pills and injections. 

I wish I could write and share as much as unchained does.  Reading his posts are always uplifting and I can identify myself with him so much.

 
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FreedSoul

Member
Almost through week two.  I have not had many urges but just looking at news sites and seeing women in bikini's or small dresses triggers thoughts in my mind that I know I need to fight.

I'm feeling very tired and well not depressed but just not motivated by much.  Winter blues are not helping either.
 
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FreedSoul

Member
2 weeks and still going strong.  I'm having dreams at night but I'm not sure if I'm asleep or not.  Feels like a dream but I seem to be awake.  I think this might be the reason why I'm so tired during the day.

 
hans32

hans32

Member
I understand the dreaming part also- wether sleeping or something else, they seem to be invaluable to this process.  I write them down when I wake up-
 
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notgivinup

Guest
Hey FreedSoul...glad you are here.
I was just reading your posts, and glad to see you moving forward.
My longest time away from pmo was 69 days a year ago....I've been on a roller coaster since then...but am back, and learning to walk away from it all.

Thanks for coming here. Looking forward to reading about your successes.

Thanks.
NGU
 
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FreedSoul

Member
Hey Hans32 and NGU,

thanks for the words.  Still going strong and the dreams seems to have passed.  The only other thing that seems to be going on is my Libido has gone down to zero.  Wife is a little worried... thinks I might be having a mid-life crises.

I'm learning to quickly turn my head from any glimps of a magazine or another with a suggestive woman on it.

I'm also learning to do stuff to keep me busy as boredom is a major trigger in the past for me.

Freedsoul.
 
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Bear46

New Member
Hi freedsoul we have alot in common im 46 male been addicted to porn all my
Life too.I just joined the site to find some help with this. I am married to a beautiful woman
But she is not happy with the porn and everything and i tell her its just a guy thing ya know
We all do it but i can see that it's breaking up our marriage.... How can I explain this to her
So she understands my problems and any pointers on how i can control the temptation?
 
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FreedSoul

Member
I've not logged in for a while but decided I needed to now.  I think it's been about 6 weeks since me last PMO.  It's been pretty smooth sailing up until recently.  I've decided that urges come into my mind and I need to just know they are there and move on.  If I spend too much time fighting with it, that is when I would fail in the past.  So today is Monday and this is the day I usually fail so it going to be a tough one. 

I know I have to get over this bump in the road.

Still strong!

 
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