Hey.
I'm 24. I was searching a forum but I didn't found anything related to my situation. I'm addicted to masturbation but it's NOT porn related. In fact I can't get en erection watching porns, I was using my own imagination and touch since I was like 9, an I never stopped since then. So it is difficult to me to take it up without touching.
I had two girlfriends in my life and we've had a sexual life although my performances were rather poor. Not to flood you with details I had loads of complete failures in bed. It's 3 years now since I last had sex. I had a lot of situations when I coud 'close the deal' but I was always doing everything to avoid it. I have no problem talking with girls as long as there is no sexual interest involved, the minute I see that she's into me, it feels like something's burning in my chest. I'm terryfied because I KNOW I will fail so I'm not following through. But in night I return to my fantasies (The fantasies alone don''t work I have to use my hand) and do the thing in comfort.
I'll never have again a sexual life with this panic concerning sex. I AM FRIENDZONING girls intrested in me, because of this riddiculus fear. How f*cked up is that? I thought about calling an escort, to get through this fear, you know I would not have be worried about my performance and once I succeed (If I do), I could try my chance in real situation...
Do you thing that 'watching porn' but on the screen of my own imagination is actually the same thing as watching regular porn? What about my 'escort idea'? I'm feeling like a wierdo, really. I need to sort it out and fast, I've had it. I'll do anything you suggest.
Thanks for your help.
I'm 24. I was searching a forum but I didn't found anything related to my situation. I'm addicted to masturbation but it's NOT porn related. In fact I can't get en erection watching porns, I was using my own imagination and touch since I was like 9, an I never stopped since then. So it is difficult to me to take it up without touching.
I had two girlfriends in my life and we've had a sexual life although my performances were rather poor. Not to flood you with details I had loads of complete failures in bed. It's 3 years now since I last had sex. I had a lot of situations when I coud 'close the deal' but I was always doing everything to avoid it. I have no problem talking with girls as long as there is no sexual interest involved, the minute I see that she's into me, it feels like something's burning in my chest. I'm terryfied because I KNOW I will fail so I'm not following through. But in night I return to my fantasies (The fantasies alone don''t work I have to use my hand) and do the thing in comfort.
I'll never have again a sexual life with this panic concerning sex. I AM FRIENDZONING girls intrested in me, because of this riddiculus fear. How f*cked up is that? I thought about calling an escort, to get through this fear, you know I would not have be worried about my performance and once I succeed (If I do), I could try my chance in real situation...
Do you thing that 'watching porn' but on the screen of my own imagination is actually the same thing as watching regular porn? What about my 'escort idea'? I'm feeling like a wierdo, really. I need to sort it out and fast, I've had it. I'll do anything you suggest.
Thanks for your help.