cd3b333
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I am in my late twenties and I grew up with internet pornography. I knew it was bad for me... I mean, I was always silently embarrassed about how much I jerked off and I would never want anyone to know about my tastes in pornography. So, all through junior high, high school, and college, my sex life was virtually non-existent. You guys have all experienced that awkwardness. I was extremely nervous around girls because of all of this. But here I am now, and I am doing better than I ever have been in my life in many respects. But it's crunch time.
In the past year I have quit smoking cold turkey. I have gotten back into running, and I put in about 10 miles a week. I have also added in weightlifting now for the past month and a half, and I have no intentions of giving that up. I have built up fitness as a positive habit in my life, and now I am trying to improve my nutrition so I can actually shed pounds. I also was courageous enough to make a bold change in my life last year by leaving my six figure job and returning to school so I could focus on improving my health, both mental and physical. Spirituality is also a big part of who I am, though I do not subscribe to any prevailing denominations of any religions. I don't fit well into neat little boxes like that.
I also have a strong sense of vocation, and a purpose for being here in this world. I am a man on a mission, but I realize I'm still covered in mud and crawling on my belly through the battlefield.
Gabe suggested answering these questions, so here goes.
Did I use porn today? yes
What were my triggers? stress from not completing my paper for school on time today.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? I could have done more.I am having a tough time remembering anything I tried
What am I grateful for today? I am so grateful for friends who believe in me and encourage me
Day counter! Started NoFap on Feb 18th. Relapsed 10 days later on the 28th. Restarted, and relapsed again today. So, my day counter is at ZERO.
So that's it for now. I look forward to checking in as much as possible to update here, to encourage and learn from others and to receive encouragement and advice. One tip I have right off the bat is a great book I read that helped me quit smoking. It's called "The Willpower Instinct: How Self-Control Works, Why It Matters, and What You Can Do to Get More of It".
*edit was for a small typo right after I posted. Whoops.
In the past year I have quit smoking cold turkey. I have gotten back into running, and I put in about 10 miles a week. I have also added in weightlifting now for the past month and a half, and I have no intentions of giving that up. I have built up fitness as a positive habit in my life, and now I am trying to improve my nutrition so I can actually shed pounds. I also was courageous enough to make a bold change in my life last year by leaving my six figure job and returning to school so I could focus on improving my health, both mental and physical. Spirituality is also a big part of who I am, though I do not subscribe to any prevailing denominations of any religions. I don't fit well into neat little boxes like that.
I also have a strong sense of vocation, and a purpose for being here in this world. I am a man on a mission, but I realize I'm still covered in mud and crawling on my belly through the battlefield.
Gabe suggested answering these questions, so here goes.
Did I use porn today? yes
What were my triggers? stress from not completing my paper for school on time today.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? I could have done more.I am having a tough time remembering anything I tried
What am I grateful for today? I am so grateful for friends who believe in me and encourage me
Day counter! Started NoFap on Feb 18th. Relapsed 10 days later on the 28th. Restarted, and relapsed again today. So, my day counter is at ZERO.
So that's it for now. I look forward to checking in as much as possible to update here, to encourage and learn from others and to receive encouragement and advice. One tip I have right off the bat is a great book I read that helped me quit smoking. It's called "The Willpower Instinct: How Self-Control Works, Why It Matters, and What You Can Do to Get More of It".
*edit was for a small typo right after I posted. Whoops.