readytobefree
Active Member
Short Bio:
31 years old
P for 16-17 years
Been trying to quit for 6 years
Longest streak: 19 days hard mode.
I'm here to finish what I started.
Sometime ago I decided to leave the forums because I felt, "the less I thought about this, the better".
BUT.. I guess I have pretty low will power at the moment. I kept failing. Anyway, I like when I did some solid streaks on here and have decided to come back and get to a year while writing in this public forum.
I like all the positive comments and hope my journey can help other people as well.
I'm currently 6 days clean. Just had sex with my girlfriend last night (although I had to focus and perhaps fantasize on other women to keep hard but after penetration I could finish just fine thinking about her).
Do I have ED? Yes definitely. DE? No, I can cum just fine once I'm inside a girl.
I've experienced HOCD and morphing sexual attraction as a result of hardcore watching. I've been watching P for about 16-17 years. I would say i'm straight but all that porn has totally desensitized me. Anyway, I think on day 4 i had INTENSE HOCD feelings, but the very next day, they disappeared.
It's all about FIGHTING, I feel. I doubt I can just ignore my addiction and it'll disappear. It's a very real physical feeling and I have to be alert all the time.
Anyway, I'm here to do it once and for all. Thank you for reading.
31 years old
P for 16-17 years
Been trying to quit for 6 years
Longest streak: 19 days hard mode.
I'm here to finish what I started.
Sometime ago I decided to leave the forums because I felt, "the less I thought about this, the better".
BUT.. I guess I have pretty low will power at the moment. I kept failing. Anyway, I like when I did some solid streaks on here and have decided to come back and get to a year while writing in this public forum.
I like all the positive comments and hope my journey can help other people as well.
I'm currently 6 days clean. Just had sex with my girlfriend last night (although I had to focus and perhaps fantasize on other women to keep hard but after penetration I could finish just fine thinking about her).
Do I have ED? Yes definitely. DE? No, I can cum just fine once I'm inside a girl.
I've experienced HOCD and morphing sexual attraction as a result of hardcore watching. I've been watching P for about 16-17 years. I would say i'm straight but all that porn has totally desensitized me. Anyway, I think on day 4 i had INTENSE HOCD feelings, but the very next day, they disappeared.
It's all about FIGHTING, I feel. I doubt I can just ignore my addiction and it'll disappear. It's a very real physical feeling and I have to be alert all the time.
Anyway, I'm here to do it once and for all. Thank you for reading.