I have been watching porn since 12 I was in high school back then ..it has been regular during that period I hardly had any concept or idea about addictions and the same habit continued during my college days also. As a child, I was pretty above average in academics but it had gone to average and even below that ... I had poor grades and loss of concentration but hardly I noticed that the main reason behind that was porn too as I used to procrastinate play games and watch porn...it affected my relationships also I was more craving for fantasies that I used to watch in porn than real intimacy ... I even tried to bring unrealistic fantasies in my relationship which eventually hurt our relationship and it ended ...and at that point, I realized that I have to get through this bad habit that was killing me, so eventually, I started nofap in 2017 November during that time I got a part-time same time I completely abstained from porn and sexual material, I noticed changes both physically and psychologically , I was getting my confidence back and my concentration improved ..but it was in last year October I slipped I watched porn one day which began a relapse cycle ..after watching for a couple of hours I used to feel guilty again ...all those emotions felt coming back .. I was again getting in depression..after relapsing I used to go on streak of abstinence for week than I would start again... I tried my best to control but someway around others, I will see myself falling again into this trap ..... I really want to quit ...