Hello fellow rebooters.
I am a 26 year old male and started with PMO when I was 14 years old. Shortly after I started PMO I got a gf and I had no sexual problems whatsoever. That changed when I was 16 years old. I had PMO-ed almost every single day up untill then and remained doing so until almost 4 months ago. Sometimes I would PMO including edging for a long time for 3 or more times a day, although that was kind of rare for to do. Anyways, when I was 16 and tried having sex with my gf I couldn't get it up. I thought something was wrong with me. I eexercised almost every day, ate healthy so I didn't know what was wrong with me. Since that experience I have refused almost every sexual contact with potential girls because I was so scared about it happening again because I kept having difficulty getting hard and PIV was always impossible for me.
More than a year ago I saw videos of Gabe Deem, Noah Church and other role models. I have been trying to quit porn since then and although I relapsed many times, sometimes for months, the last couple of months have been relatively easy. Since then my mood has improved, I sleep better and have more energy. My sensitivity has improved and sometimes I get random boners. Also during kissing with my current partner which is something that I didn't experience for the last 8 years. My girlfriend knows about my recovery and is very supportive. I didn't PMO or MO the first couple of weeks since I started dating her. Around that time we started fooling around, no PIV though. My erections were fluctuating. Sometimes I had MW, sometimes I didn't. I had a flat line for the at least three weeks. Sometimes it feels like I am stuck in a flat line after not O'ing with my gf for a couple a days. The last couple of weeks my erections during the fooling around havent been what they were since I started recovery. My girlfriend notices it and I feel less of a man. I don't know what I should do. Should I abstain? I have read that rewiring with a partner can be beneficial. I do smoke, maybe it's that? I went to the doctor a year ago and he said my ED wasn't anything physical but probably performance anxiety. To be honest, I am always scared when I am intimate with my girlfriend. I wonder if I will get hard (enough), can keep it up. Back in the day those fears would kill my erection. It doesn't anymore, but my penis doesn't get fully hard anymore. I orgasm maybe once or twice a week with my girlfriend. Oh, and I got diagnosed with a depression again but I am not taking medication and I have been under a lot of stress lately so that might be a factor as well.
So basically my question is, should I change anything? Give it more time? Does anybody had a similar experience? Thanks for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day! Keep up living a better life!
I am a 26 year old male and started with PMO when I was 14 years old. Shortly after I started PMO I got a gf and I had no sexual problems whatsoever. That changed when I was 16 years old. I had PMO-ed almost every single day up untill then and remained doing so until almost 4 months ago. Sometimes I would PMO including edging for a long time for 3 or more times a day, although that was kind of rare for to do. Anyways, when I was 16 and tried having sex with my gf I couldn't get it up. I thought something was wrong with me. I eexercised almost every day, ate healthy so I didn't know what was wrong with me. Since that experience I have refused almost every sexual contact with potential girls because I was so scared about it happening again because I kept having difficulty getting hard and PIV was always impossible for me.
More than a year ago I saw videos of Gabe Deem, Noah Church and other role models. I have been trying to quit porn since then and although I relapsed many times, sometimes for months, the last couple of months have been relatively easy. Since then my mood has improved, I sleep better and have more energy. My sensitivity has improved and sometimes I get random boners. Also during kissing with my current partner which is something that I didn't experience for the last 8 years. My girlfriend knows about my recovery and is very supportive. I didn't PMO or MO the first couple of weeks since I started dating her. Around that time we started fooling around, no PIV though. My erections were fluctuating. Sometimes I had MW, sometimes I didn't. I had a flat line for the at least three weeks. Sometimes it feels like I am stuck in a flat line after not O'ing with my gf for a couple a days. The last couple of weeks my erections during the fooling around havent been what they were since I started recovery. My girlfriend notices it and I feel less of a man. I don't know what I should do. Should I abstain? I have read that rewiring with a partner can be beneficial. I do smoke, maybe it's that? I went to the doctor a year ago and he said my ED wasn't anything physical but probably performance anxiety. To be honest, I am always scared when I am intimate with my girlfriend. I wonder if I will get hard (enough), can keep it up. Back in the day those fears would kill my erection. It doesn't anymore, but my penis doesn't get fully hard anymore. I orgasm maybe once or twice a week with my girlfriend. Oh, and I got diagnosed with a depression again but I am not taking medication and I have been under a lot of stress lately so that might be a factor as well.
So basically my question is, should I change anything? Give it more time? Does anybody had a similar experience? Thanks for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day! Keep up living a better life!