2 weeks ago

I made the decision to end PMO and change my life. Today I am suffering. Depression is absolutely brutal. It feels like the world is coming to an end. I hope to God I fall asleep tonight. I have not given in but this is pure hell. Please let there be better days ahead.

The withdrawal symtoms you are experiencing now are awful, but they are a sign that you are winning. Your brain is screaming at you to give it its hit of PMO.
Youve made it two weeks, just a little longer! Theyll fade away soon, just stick it out for a little longer

Its going to get better mate. The good times are on the way. Just Hang in there and don't give in. You are not alone in these feelings. pmo is a soul stripper, you can do it

I appreciate the support. I was able to fall asleep with the help of some meds but I didn't sleep long enough and I am having a real tough time functioning at work. I am in no way recovered here. I still have racing sexual thoughts. Thoughts of porn I enjoyed. Thoughts of past sexual experiences. My brain is definitely dying for a fix. The primary reason I am doing this is so I have a healthy sexual relationship with my wife. God I hope this happens soon.

Praying for you.  I know that this feels like it will never end, but I can assure you it's only temporary.  Don't fight the urges.  Let yourself feel them without acting on them.  I know it is unbearable.  Acute urges usually don't last more than 20 minutes.

If you are like me, you made this your raison d'?tre.  Once you lose that, life loses its meaning in some way.  The depression is going to rage for a while.  I have my good days and bad days, but I believe the depression too is impermanent.

You are doing hard, hard work that is changing you for the better.  I know it hurts, but you can do this.