Hi guys, time to start a journal, this is day 2.
At 28 I?ve been watching porn, on and off, for about 18 years. Only in the last say 5 years have I realised that in my case it was more about avoiding reality, than just stress relief or fun. And in the last two years I?ve been actively trying to quit it.
My reason to start this journal now, is I have a study break starting in a week that goes for about three months. And I want to get past this.
But my biggest motivation is to become the son I want to be for my parents. In avoiding porn or video games and facing life, I?ve come to realise I have a long way to go to mature. It?s like I?ve had my head in the sand ever since I left high school. I?ve missed opportunities and lost contact with friends. I haven?t held a steady job, but I am now committed to a few years of study with one year just finished. The situation feels salvageable, but the time for half-attempts is well and truly up.
I?ve recently adopted a mindset to change my lifestyle and environment. Which I used to completely change my room, not use my computer in it, get a lot more exercise, and try different activities especially outdoors.
What has held me back is social rejection, assignment stress, and loneliness being single. To tackle these issues, I am acting on my values and not unhelpful feelings (ACT principle), and am generally getting involved in more social and sports classes etc.
I should say I tried limited use a few years ago, and it never worked, the negative effects only escalated. I need it completely out of my system.
I?m intending to journal the ups and downs and get into a rhythm where I am more than happy to leave porn behind me.
Thanks for taking the time to read!
At 28 I?ve been watching porn, on and off, for about 18 years. Only in the last say 5 years have I realised that in my case it was more about avoiding reality, than just stress relief or fun. And in the last two years I?ve been actively trying to quit it.
My reason to start this journal now, is I have a study break starting in a week that goes for about three months. And I want to get past this.
But my biggest motivation is to become the son I want to be for my parents. In avoiding porn or video games and facing life, I?ve come to realise I have a long way to go to mature. It?s like I?ve had my head in the sand ever since I left high school. I?ve missed opportunities and lost contact with friends. I haven?t held a steady job, but I am now committed to a few years of study with one year just finished. The situation feels salvageable, but the time for half-attempts is well and truly up.
I?ve recently adopted a mindset to change my lifestyle and environment. Which I used to completely change my room, not use my computer in it, get a lot more exercise, and try different activities especially outdoors.
What has held me back is social rejection, assignment stress, and loneliness being single. To tackle these issues, I am acting on my values and not unhelpful feelings (ACT principle), and am generally getting involved in more social and sports classes etc.
I should say I tried limited use a few years ago, and it never worked, the negative effects only escalated. I need it completely out of my system.
I?m intending to journal the ups and downs and get into a rhythm where I am more than happy to leave porn behind me.
Thanks for taking the time to read!