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Arya

Member
Hi everybody

I am Arya  I?m very glad to be among you , like most people I ?been struggling porn since young age, I tried to stop it many times but still haven?t achieved my goal , my best score till today were about 35 days without porn?

So I set a goal of 90 days without porn today, and will be writing my journal here. During my years of struggle I learned that the things caused my failure most of time were: being fooled by my mind tricks when it says: just watch for 1 minute, or ?there is no harm in watching porn? etc..., and I found that mostly when I am in a bad mood or tired porn is more powerful to overcome me so I think being happy and in good mood, also making yourself busy with your favorite works is very effective in passing hard times!

I am really overwhelmed by damn porn and want to finish it this time and get my life back!  I ask for your support best wishes and positive energies !  :D :)
 

qrayzHD

Active Member
If you have gone 35 days without porn in the past then you are strong enough to go all the way, good luck.
 

Arya

Member
My third day of reboot went well , my energy is restoring , so it's not at high level to fight me yet, I hope I'll be powerful enough to confront it when it's high!

maybe the biggest problem in rebooting is that of course you can pass the tests when you are happy and fresh ( in a good mood ) but that's a big challenge to pas it when you are not good and it's much more harder to be in control!

 

Arya

Member
I had rough day today , heavy pressure was on me till night, but it passed finally. no emotion is permanent so if we bear enough and wait it will pass , the tip is to stay in control in hard times :)

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If you are working on your dream, sure there will be times you want to give up, sure there will be times that life will knock you down and kept you down on the blind side.

"But the challenge is to hold on. And if you hold on tenaciously I said that universe is on your side."

From ?Awakening? (speech by Les Brown)
 

Arya

Member
I am very glad to complete my first week of porn free life boys ;D I feel like rebuilding my self ! Wish you all the best  ;)
 

Arya

Member
I pas ten days my general mood was average, not too bad not perfect! sexual pressure were with almost every hour. but everyday some little changes happens, my general symptoms are my body feels pressure and hot, I feel sort of pain in my bones.

I already experienced some addiction recovery symptoms, most of them will disappear  in less than 1 month I think.
 

Arya

Member
amazing!

I feel more active and energetic, i became more cheerful and outgoing , my self confidence and power of self expression is increasing ! yeah! Thanks GOD ! Thanks All! ;D :D


 

Bailey13

New Member
Good work man! keep it up and try to stay positive. DOnt forget thought that this process can have its UPS and DOWNS, so if you dont stay feeling this great dont get discouraged! its a long process! You got it man =)
 

Arya

Member
I have to admit I never felt this much power and confidence at least in last 3-4 years. since I started rebooting.
 

Arya

Member
Report for today:

I feel powerful and energetic , I feel little nervous and sensitive but I am much more in control of my emotions comparing to past. I feel I'm more dominate in my social interactions , I mean I can have more positive impressions on others.

I feel heat in my lower body specially feet.



 

Arya

Member
Hi My Dear Warrior friends  :D

today is my 42th day without porn, absolutely! Thank You GODDDD!

Wish you all the best. 
 

Arya

Member
yesterday's night at the 52th day, I experienced a wet dream this was the first time in 52 days of absolutely porn and masturbation free!
 

Arya

Member
my original goal was to leave porn, not masturbation, but naturally I didn't masturbated for 53 days along my pornless days but after I had wet dream yesterday , my energy became wild again and temptations started!  so I was in an almost heavy pressure today, tonight I examined to discharge heavy feelings by masturbating and did it! but I am happy that I am free from porn yet. I hope my masturbation doesn't hurt my reboot! 
 

Arya

Member
Now I announce that I completed two third of my reboot (60 days) , I were absolutely free of porn in last two months. I love you all , Wish you all the best  ;D
 

Arya

Member
It seems I completed my 90 days reboot, although it wasn't as good as I wanted... but I didn't engaged in any porn unless some lite scenes that I saw in movies that can't be called porn I think. 

But any way , I don't feel good enough yet, because I still feel a great tempt to watch porn! it is no like before and it seems like 20% power, but is is bothering me, I have no sex, I just masturbate sometime but I don't feel satisfied so something forces me to porn yet! I don't know when will I find a relationship to have healthy sex, so I am worried about returning to porn again! because I feel a lack and un-satisfaction

what should I do ? 
 

JohnyDr

Member
I envy you for your 90 days :D Just go out, have some good time and meet women it's a numbers game don't expect it'll come to you...
 

qrayzHD

Active Member
90 days porn free is a fantastic first achievement, don't feel disheartened because you didn't see the results you expected because the results you have seen tend to be the norm for people in our age group. As for masturbation, i'm now a big believer in hardmode as masturbation prolongs the reboot and orgasm can send you back into a flatline, need i mention the added benefits of attracting more attention from the ladies  8) Best of luck with the rest of your reboot.
 

readytobefree

Active Member
Wow, congrats on 90 days man. I'm so envious of your streak! Be patient, I'm sure the good feelings will come in time. For now, you should be celebrating big time! :)

 
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