11 months I really need some advice please.

Hi I'm new here however I'm not new to the whole rebooting and porn induced erectile dysfunction issue we all seem to share, I was hoping to get some advice from you experienced and wise gentlemen.

My story so far I'll try to keep it as short as possible. It started about 11 months ago when I met my current girlfriend I'm 27 and she's 19 and in my eyes she's absolutely stunning as I'm sure that's how most men see there other halves and I do realise how lucky I am. It was our first night together when I realised there was a problem, after the usual foreplay kissing I'm sure we're all familiar with the routine there was just no response down there it was like my little fella had checked out for the night no matter how much I willed it or pulled it he just wasn't coming back on shift. This persisted for the next two nights at which point I managed to get my hands on some Viagra which did the trick luckily I had stopped watching porn at this point because I discovered your brain on porn after my second attempt a lucky stumble I think on my part. Luckily I had quite a few pills of Viagra and this kept me going for a few weeks with barely any problems however there was still the accessional difficulty sustaining my erection or actually getting one. I managed to get some more Viagra after those initial pills ran out and again I was good however when I did try weening myself off them, things became alot more hit and miss and certainly alot more disastrous so I went back on the pills, I was say 80% good on them and we had some great nights multiple sessions some instances going on for upto an hour, after the obligatory first round I know I'm not that good.

However after my second batch of pills run out I decided to try it without again with very mixed results sometimes I'd be good then we'd change positions and that would be it my little fella would pack up shop for the night and sometimes nothing at all despite my girlfriends attempts to get me going. Another alittle detail my girlfriend doesn't know about pied I was to embarrassed to tell her so I told her I used to bike alot and that I'd been to the doctors and he said that I had sustained some temporary nerve damage and that it should repair itself over time to help me explain the lack of erection(s) sometimes.

My sexual past isn't very extensive like most of you on here it consists of alot of porn however I haven't had any real girlfriends up until this point however I have had sex not alot or very often for that matter. Two of those accessions was when I went dogging (for those that know what that is its when you go to laybys or car parks to hopefully watch couples having sex and sometimes get an invite to join in) which was extremely fun I got a chance with a man and wife who he let me have sex with in the back of the car while he watched however the second time with this girl I failed to get it up. My other experiences I'm ashamed to admit are with prostitutes one i had sex with, with no problems the rest was always just blowjobs again with no problems again there was only a handful of these. I have never really had sex with a loving partner I've just always got down to sex without the foreplay because of the circumstances foreplay has never been a requirement. I think this could be one of the reasons I'm struggling at the minute because as we all are I'm all wired wrong, I'm not used to normal sex.

In the 11 months I've been porn free except for one very small relapse about two months ago when I did pmo to one 3 minute clip not a massive relapse but a relapse none the less. However I also havent really been abstinent for more then two to three weeks at a time however I have done this on about four occasions. During this 11 months I've been constantly rewiring and by now I thought I'd be seeing at least some results but its still very hit and miss, I've only really had one day where I had a strong labido I was following my girlfriend round a shopping centre all day pitching a tent I was that turned on but that was about three months and nothing like that since.

Still now 11 months later I literally dread sex it strikes fear in my head when I know it's about to happen or my girlfriend makes a sultry suggestion and its killing me because I shouldn't be like this. Ill give you an example last night we starting foreplay unfortunately after she got abit too excited and started playing with my little fella abit to much I o'd then she said round two in a bit and this is the thing she loves her bum been rubbed with oil or moisturiser and I defiantly am a bum man and this is often a way of turning her on and a way to transition into sex however after playing with her bum for about ten mins I had no reaction down there or no desire for sex I found myself wishing and almost praying she falls asleep, because doing something like that I'm expected to have an erection not just by her but by myself which I have in the past but it doesn't always work, when that happens I just feel like a complete failure and a let down luckily she did fall sleep but it still doesn't stop me thinking she didn't get anything out of that, she always assures me it's alright all lads cum early sometimes but it was still a horrible feeling, when I should have been good to go again in a few minutes to take her like she likes because she's quite submissive and like to be pushed around and having her hair pulled. I'm just getting so fed up after 11 months of laying next to this stunning 19 year old and not feeling anything or even really wanting sex it's really making me want to jump of a bridge, I'd never do it but the feeling is there unfortunately.

The final thing that bothers me is that she is far more sexually experienced then me she's had three boyfriends and there isn't much she hasn't already done, it's not her fault but it absolutely kills me wen she comes out with some of her old sex stories, things which I just don't feel confident enough to do yet like sex in a car and tying her up, because if my fella doesn't work it takes the fun out of been tied up, it kills me because I can't do these things with her even though I'd love to, it just makes me feel so inadequate in comparison to her younger boyfriends even though they where complete arseholes to her at least they got to explore her fun sexual side and satisfy her whereas I just feel completely inadequate even though she assures me I'm still the best person she's slept with because we still have had some good nights mainly when I was on the Viagra.

I'm looking for advice on how to truly get over this because I really want my erections back, and I want my sex drive back, I'm curious what you fine gents think about my situation could it be down to anxiety and my feeling of inadequacy or is it still down to pied, I know it's also down to my lack of sexual history because I need to learn how to have sex in a more normal manner but I'd have thought I should have learned this in the past 11 months of rewiring.

My other question is does anyone know where I can buy more Viagra or preferably cialis in the uk, I can't seem to be able to get hold of anywhere that you can just buy it, the person I used get it from I am no longer friends with, even exchange would be great if any of you gents can get hold of some I'd be willing to pay you extra for the ability to send me some or even if I could collect it because I'm starting to think that this could be the only way to get over this at the least the anxiety, I don't even care anymore if I need to spend the rest of my life on ed drugs just as long as I can at least feel normal again and satisfy my girlfriend.

Thank you in advance for any advice it's always appreciated and I wish everybody else on here all the luck in the world with beating this because it is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

I have a question man , cuz I'm afraid to lose of having and Sex and not being able to get it up. How long is recovery take like the flatline time period ?

Sorry for being too blunt, but you are obviously too young for ED drugs and your main problem sounds more like performance anxiety, since the thought of sex makes you so nervous and sex already worked with ED drugs. If you have PIED, sex doesn't even properly work with ED drugs, since the main problem with PIED is the desensitization to girls in your brain, caused by porn.

Having said that, I successfully used ED drugs myself in my reboot. Over the months I noticed my erections getting better and better on ED drugs while rewiring a lot with sex - to the point when both erections and confidence allowed me to reduce ED drugs a lot. I can have sex without them by now, as long as it is not a crazy long sex session or several days in a row.

There should be lots of sites where you can get ED drugs in the UK. What you should get however are the Indian Generics, for example Kamagra. They are chemically the same as the official "brand" names, but (should be) much cheaper and you have less of a risk to get scammed with fakes. The sites are not legal where I am, so I can't link you directly, sorry. Google will help you.

Thanks for your advice, I think it probably is performance anxiety because I have read that it can cause ed and loss of labido because like my case you end up worrying about sex rather then looking forward to it. I was wondering if you've got any advice for getting over performance anxiety I've been reading that hypnotherapy is a good method. It is a horrible feeling though when I'm laid next to her and she's naked and alot of the time I'm just hoping she falls asleep I don't feel like a real man and I don't think it's fair on her she should be having fun unproblematic sex at her age she shouldn't have to put up with all my problems, when we do start playing around all I can think about is if my little fella is getting hard which I know is gonna kill any erection I may have had and any sexual feelings but I just can't get out of my head and live in the moment, she always insists it doesn't bother her though she does seem really understanding I do feel very lucky in that respect.


Thank you for the advice about kamagra seems alot better then Viagra and cialis because its supposed to increase labido aswell and I've found a good site in the uk for it. Have you tried kamagra if so how did it fair with you and if you've tried other ed drugs how did it compare to them.

Thanks for your very detailed reply I appreciate it. 

Kamagra is exactly the same as Viagra, both contain Sildenafil. There is no effect on libido with both of them.

If you want a good alternative, try Levitra (Vardenafil) or one of the indian generics which come in all kinds of names. It stays in your system longer than Sildenafil, you don't need an empty stomach for it to work like Silden and it has a lesser numbing effect, yet it is not as unreliable as Cialis in stressful situations. I mostly stick with Varden these days, good middle ground.