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Chip
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- August 7, 2016
Today marks the completion of my, "official" 90 Day Reboot, that I began on May 9, 2016 after having a couple of what I call, "false starts". You see one of the things I've learned over the course of my time on RN is, you have to have a "Heart Change" to be able to overcome the temptation for the sin of lust, adultery, fornication, Idolatry & covetousness, aka "Porn". You see porn is a confluence of multiple sins and without the heart change I would never have found the lasting freedom from these sins. RN enabled me to find and understand what scripture had been telling me on how to deal with these sins along with the science that agrees with the scripture. Like a lot of men, deep down I was afraid to let porn fully go, I'd always used it for whatever was ailing me, boredom, stress, pain, guilt, shame, but porn doesn't ever really treat these issues it just traps you in a loop of habitual sin, going round and round.
My relationship with Porn began when I was 8, I'm 46 now, so I wasted 38 years that I could've been using to do good things, unselfish things. I was raised in a Christian home, I am a Christian to this day, but during my time with porn I was living a double life and truthfully I was miserable. I understand full well what the Bible means when it says, "you can't serve two masters" because there were plenty of times I felt like my mind, my soul was being torn in two. My parents had no idea I was struggling and honestly when I was younger I myself didn't realize the harm I was doing to myself and those I cared about. Porn wasn't something allowed in our house, but my friend across the street, his dad had a vast library, a complete separate room filled with it.
I came to RN on March 14, 2016 and signed in as "Trader22". I had my first false start last 17 days and I wasn't using filters at that time. I was so ashamed I left RN for 11 days and binged until I was thoroughly disgusted and came back. My next false start lasted 23 days and again I wasn't using any filters. This time I deleted my account and left RN to binge for 5 days until I returned to RN for my final "Reboot", which began May 9, 2016. My best advice I can give is learn everything you can about; the porn industry, Dopamine and porn addiction. Second, if you drop the ball, don't do what I did and leave, stay and confess it. Learn from your falls, strengthen your defenses, use filters and blockers like K9 & Pluckeye. Read your bible, what you'll learn is that the scripture recommends many of the same things mentioned here to deal with sexual sins.
The wisest most honest man on RN is William, if you read his thread (that I'm gonna give you a link to), and you follow his directions explicitly, I believe any man can be "One and Done". If you try to go cafeteria style, it doesn't usually workout so well. Go check out William and get your life back. I had hoped to be more eloquent with this thread, but I'm struggling to come up with what to say. My thanks to Gabe Dean for starting RN and my thanks to William for getting me on the right path. Thank you also to the many men who encouraged me and share their wisedom and experiences with me as we fought together. Finally, thank you to my Lord and savior Jesus Christ for dying for my sins and leading me to Reboot Nation. Below I've listed the steps I took to finally break free of this sinful merry go round as well as my journal and Williams.
William - "Hello Gentlemen, Now we begin"
http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=1256.0
Chip - "The Renewing of my Mind"
http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=8727.0
- Confession of all Sins. 1 John 1:9 (NKJV)
9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Confession consists of two parts, first you admit what was done. Second, you must agree with God that what was done is a sin and realize the significance of it.
- Repentance of Sins.(To turn away from them) Ezekiel 14:6 (NKJV)
6 ?Therefore say to the house of Israel, ?Thus says the Lord God: ?Repent, turn away from your idols, and turn your faces away from all your abominations.
Repentance is a turning away from, going in the opposite direction, learning new habits. 80% of what we do everyday is out of habit.
- Pluck out and Cut off access & ability to sin. Matthew 5:29-30 NKJV
29 If your right eye causes you to sin, pluck it out and cast it from you; for it is more profitable for you that one of your members perish, than for your whole body to be cast into hell.
30 And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and cast it from you; for it is more profitable for you that one of your members perish, than for your whole body to be cast into hell.
How we go about, "Plucking out & Cutting off" is to Install adult filters/blockers on all computers/mobile devices (I use K9 and Pluckeye)
- Flee temptation. 1 Corinthians 10:12-14 NKJV
12 Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall.
13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.
14 Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry.
A lot of Christian men mistakenly think God wants us to face down temptation, but this is unnecessary and I believe rooted in pride. The Bible clearly instructs us to FLEE temptation because our flesh is weak. When temptation presents itself either in thought or urge its important we don't engage it. Instead of trying "NOT" to think of porn/lust, practice putting your mind on good things, Holy things, uplifting things and in this way the temptation will pass.
- Take every thought captive. 2 Corinthians 10:5 NKJV
5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
This battle is fought in your mind and your heart, not your pants. So it is essential to victory to take every thought captive and not let any thoughts in that we don't want.
- Strength in Numbers Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 NKJV
9 Two are better than one,
Because they have a good reward for their labor.
10 For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.
But woe to him who is alone when he falls,
For he has no one to help him up.
11 Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;
But how can one be warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.
And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.
Going it alone isn't necessary or advised by the bible, we need support like RN and our spouses. So post on RN daily and educate yourself on what your dealing with, what to expect along the way and be encouraged as you encourage others.
- The Bride of your Youth. Proverbs 5:18-19 NKJV
18 Let your fountain be blessed,
And rejoice with the wife of your youth.
19 As a loving deer and a graceful doe,
Let her breasts satisfy you at all times;
And always be enraptured with her love.
Save all your attention and desire for your bride and you will be blessed.
- No Alcohol during Reboot. 1 Peter 5:8 (NKJV)
8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
Drinking even in moderation during a Reboot opens the door for a weak moment and leads to relapses far too often.
- Nature Abhors a Vacuum.
80% of what humans do during a day is done out of habit, we've developed a really bad habit in porn and we need to replace it with a healthy one. Some good habits are Prayer, Bible Study and physical activity.
- Bet on Victory
For me I needed some extra traction to get the ball rolling, I'd been addicted a long time, but had never felt the pain of porn addiction other than my own guilt and conviction. I bet on myself succeeding, I left myself no outs and I took something of extreme personal value and wagered it against me looking at Porn even once more. On my honor, if I failed the item was to be destroyed.
- Make a Covenant with you eyes.
My final gambit of insurance was I made a covenant with my eyes, that I was never to look at or listen to porn of any sort ever again. I adopted a Zero Porn policy, in writing and i signed it. Below is that list, feel free to copy it.
A ZERO PORN POLICY- NO P-Subs(FB & Twitter, etc.)
- NO Erotic stories
- NO Fantasy, AT ALL.
- NO Listening to sexual sounds or audio
- NO suggestive music
- NO Nudity(TV or Movies)
- NO Simulated sex(TV or Movies)
- NO Edging or stimulative touching.
- NO MASTURBATING, PERIOD.
***Sex should be limited to your spouse, but for a stronger more complete reboot, do the "HARD 90", but only if you and your wife agree to it.***
** Post on RN Daily **
** Setup a counter **
** Read success stories and study, study, study. **
TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. PRAY AND STUDY SCRIPTURE DAILY. HAVE FAITH. - Confession of all Sins. 1 John 1:9 (NKJV)