Will Stalwart
Active Member
I'm a 23 year old guy, and I'm 2 days without porn. I am writing on here as a way to motivate myself to keep going after a few failed attempts that have not lasted longer than one week.
I was inspired to quit porn, like most of you, by Gary Wilson's Ted talk. The talk opened my eyes to the effect that porn was having on my life. Before the talk I was blind to these issues, writing off instances of not being able to maintain an erection and not reaching an orgasm through sex as performance anxiety, or too much alcohol. The talk resonated with issues I had experienced first hand, and the only way to be sure of this was to put my assumptions to the test.
It wasn't until the second day after giving up porn that I understood how severe of an addiction I had. I have always thought of myself as a mentally strong person, and while I expected there to be discomfort from the process, I was ill prepared for the ferocity of the craving that hit me. Hungover and alone at home, I was ashamed when I failed on day two of my personal experiment. For the rest of the day I couldn't believe how mentally weak I was, and how easily i succumbed to the draw of porn and that shameful moment of release. This was my first lesson into the nature of my addiction, and forced me to admit that this was a real problem to resolve and not just some straightforward experiment or test.
It has been about 2/3 week since then and I have stumbled another three times. Every time I fail I am increasingly frustrated at myself. But each time I am learning. Joining this forum is a part of my learning curve as I have realized that without support, any moment alone at home can lead me down the rabbit hole and back into the comfort and release I receive from my porn addiction. Two days in, and as I type this I can already feel that niggling need that picks away at my resolve. I will get past this with your help and support, and I hope I can reciprocate and help you through too.
But its not all grey clouds, and there is a ray of light creeping through. Despite the relatively short period of my rebooting and my stumbles along the way, I have significantly reduced the amount of porn I consume and cut down on my masturbation habits. I am beginning to understand why I have previously failed and it is something I am working on. I have already experienced positive changes in my short time trying to reboot. During my longest stretch (a meager 8 days) I experienced an increased interest in girls I saw day to day. I began to see the beauty that I was missing. If this is my result from a short break from porn, I am excited to experience the future in my porn free life!
I was inspired to quit porn, like most of you, by Gary Wilson's Ted talk. The talk opened my eyes to the effect that porn was having on my life. Before the talk I was blind to these issues, writing off instances of not being able to maintain an erection and not reaching an orgasm through sex as performance anxiety, or too much alcohol. The talk resonated with issues I had experienced first hand, and the only way to be sure of this was to put my assumptions to the test.
It wasn't until the second day after giving up porn that I understood how severe of an addiction I had. I have always thought of myself as a mentally strong person, and while I expected there to be discomfort from the process, I was ill prepared for the ferocity of the craving that hit me. Hungover and alone at home, I was ashamed when I failed on day two of my personal experiment. For the rest of the day I couldn't believe how mentally weak I was, and how easily i succumbed to the draw of porn and that shameful moment of release. This was my first lesson into the nature of my addiction, and forced me to admit that this was a real problem to resolve and not just some straightforward experiment or test.
It has been about 2/3 week since then and I have stumbled another three times. Every time I fail I am increasingly frustrated at myself. But each time I am learning. Joining this forum is a part of my learning curve as I have realized that without support, any moment alone at home can lead me down the rabbit hole and back into the comfort and release I receive from my porn addiction. Two days in, and as I type this I can already feel that niggling need that picks away at my resolve. I will get past this with your help and support, and I hope I can reciprocate and help you through too.
But its not all grey clouds, and there is a ray of light creeping through. Despite the relatively short period of my rebooting and my stumbles along the way, I have significantly reduced the amount of porn I consume and cut down on my masturbation habits. I am beginning to understand why I have previously failed and it is something I am working on. I have already experienced positive changes in my short time trying to reboot. During my longest stretch (a meager 8 days) I experienced an increased interest in girls I saw day to day. I began to see the beauty that I was missing. If this is my result from a short break from porn, I am excited to experience the future in my porn free life!