CrowMagnum
Active Member
Hi there, I'm Crow-Magnon. I'm a recovering PMO addict. Before that I was a full blown addict. Before that I felt in control of my life. I'm here to help work towards keeping my actions in line with my ideals and goals. Here's a little background about me:
I started PMOing to internet videos daily before I hit puberty. I stayed on this path without determent until I was a senior in high school. Since then, until fairly recently, I've been half-assing my recovery. One thought I recently recalled from childhood helped sober me up. I remember thinking, "I can't wait to have my own place and my own computer," while thinking about sexual satisfaction. No thoughts of a partner entered my mind. It was just me, a computer, and a space where no one could interrupt or find me. That's what I thought real satisfaction and happiness entailed. Fast-forward to now: I have a computer and privacy yet I'm empty and completely dissatisfied with my life. Well, near completely dissatisfied. I'm on the road of recovery now and there's hope.
My journal title refers to my aspirations to eradicate my PMO pathway as much as possible and to supplant it with a healthier mindset.
I started PMOing to internet videos daily before I hit puberty. I stayed on this path without determent until I was a senior in high school. Since then, until fairly recently, I've been half-assing my recovery. One thought I recently recalled from childhood helped sober me up. I remember thinking, "I can't wait to have my own place and my own computer," while thinking about sexual satisfaction. No thoughts of a partner entered my mind. It was just me, a computer, and a space where no one could interrupt or find me. That's what I thought real satisfaction and happiness entailed. Fast-forward to now: I have a computer and privacy yet I'm empty and completely dissatisfied with my life. Well, near completely dissatisfied. I'm on the road of recovery now and there's hope.
My journal title refers to my aspirations to eradicate my PMO pathway as much as possible and to supplant it with a healthier mindset.