Well, I was 11 or 12 years old when I first met internet porn, now I'm 19.
At first I would barely look for some photographs, then some videos, after that it became more and more usual to look for porn on the internet until last year that I pmoed just every day.
I've never been too extroverted I guess it's my personality, but from 4 years to now it has gone too far. I feel anxiety every time I have to meet people I don't know, or even the ones I know. I have a complete lack of confidence but also energy to do the things I must do and that's bringing me problems at college and relationships.
A couple of years ago I had a girlfriend for a year. We hadn't had sex before and lost our virginity together so I guess she wasn't too disappointed with my performance. On the other hand I knew the bitter truth: I had and still have premature ejaculation. Unbelievably PE didn't destroy our relationship, it was my social anxiety. (I have to say I'm not sure about if I really have social anxiety, I haven't been to a psychiatrist).
She split with my because of my behaviour and it was quite hard for me, pmo was my painkiller at that time.
Later I met my actual girlfriend, we've been together for a year and she is just amazing, I can't fuck everything up again, she doesn't deserve all the pain my social anxiety can cause. She knows I have PE and until now it hasn't been a problem, anyway, I want to defeat it and I think rebooting will help me.
I also think my mild social anxiety can be cured with rebooting, and I want to stop it before it becomes a severe problem.
I ran into YBOP and Reboot Nation last August and since then I've been trying to reboot without results. The only reason I'm here is just to encourage myself and don't fall into temptation. (Just talking in medical terms, I'm an atheist).
Thanks for reading.
At first I would barely look for some photographs, then some videos, after that it became more and more usual to look for porn on the internet until last year that I pmoed just every day.
I've never been too extroverted I guess it's my personality, but from 4 years to now it has gone too far. I feel anxiety every time I have to meet people I don't know, or even the ones I know. I have a complete lack of confidence but also energy to do the things I must do and that's bringing me problems at college and relationships.
A couple of years ago I had a girlfriend for a year. We hadn't had sex before and lost our virginity together so I guess she wasn't too disappointed with my performance. On the other hand I knew the bitter truth: I had and still have premature ejaculation. Unbelievably PE didn't destroy our relationship, it was my social anxiety. (I have to say I'm not sure about if I really have social anxiety, I haven't been to a psychiatrist).
She split with my because of my behaviour and it was quite hard for me, pmo was my painkiller at that time.
Later I met my actual girlfriend, we've been together for a year and she is just amazing, I can't fuck everything up again, she doesn't deserve all the pain my social anxiety can cause. She knows I have PE and until now it hasn't been a problem, anyway, I want to defeat it and I think rebooting will help me.
I also think my mild social anxiety can be cured with rebooting, and I want to stop it before it becomes a severe problem.
I ran into YBOP and Reboot Nation last August and since then I've been trying to reboot without results. The only reason I'm here is just to encourage myself and don't fall into temptation. (Just talking in medical terms, I'm an atheist).
Thanks for reading.