openreboot
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I'm 38 years old. I started looking at porn around 16 years old, but not really the "high speed, instant access" kind until my mid 20's. I did not really become sexually active until I was around 23.
Since then, I've probably been masturbating with porn 4-5 times a week, moving from video to video, searching for the next best thing.
My erections have never been great, but good enough most of the time to get things done with my wife, though I've noticed it getting worse and worse over time. I turned to pills, which worked great initially, but have now become less effective.
Here's the kicker...
My wife and I are in an open relationship for a little over a year now, we are allowed to be with others sexually outside of each other. With these women, I've had a MUCH harder time, and its the rare occasion that things work well. Part of the fun of the open relationship is when we come back to each other and share the experience - it's been a big turn on for each of us.
As I'm starting my recovery (fully stopped everything even related to an orgasm 6 days ago after finding this site and being enlightened), I'm worried about things that will cause me to either relapse, or slow the progress. My hard rules so far are absolutely no masturbation, and absolutely no porn or visual imagery to get me thinking about porn.
1. Should I still be able to attempt and have sex with my wife at any point during this process, as long as my mind is focused on what's happening in front of me, and not wandering to fantasies?
2. Should I still be able to attempt and have sex with other women at any point during this process?
3. Should I limit what my wife communicates to me about her experiences, even if I don't get off on them, because that's triggering the "fantasy" type thing in my head?
4. Has anyone else gone through a recovery in an open relationship? What did that look like?
5. Will my progress move faster if I just forget about orgasms entirely for a while (still getting my wife off through various means)?
I'm really hopeful about my journey, and I feel super inspired by all of the accounts I read here. I have the support of my wife, and I feel like I can actually make a change for the better, though I just need reassurance that I'm doing it the best way.
Since then, I've probably been masturbating with porn 4-5 times a week, moving from video to video, searching for the next best thing.
My erections have never been great, but good enough most of the time to get things done with my wife, though I've noticed it getting worse and worse over time. I turned to pills, which worked great initially, but have now become less effective.
Here's the kicker...
My wife and I are in an open relationship for a little over a year now, we are allowed to be with others sexually outside of each other. With these women, I've had a MUCH harder time, and its the rare occasion that things work well. Part of the fun of the open relationship is when we come back to each other and share the experience - it's been a big turn on for each of us.
As I'm starting my recovery (fully stopped everything even related to an orgasm 6 days ago after finding this site and being enlightened), I'm worried about things that will cause me to either relapse, or slow the progress. My hard rules so far are absolutely no masturbation, and absolutely no porn or visual imagery to get me thinking about porn.
1. Should I still be able to attempt and have sex with my wife at any point during this process, as long as my mind is focused on what's happening in front of me, and not wandering to fantasies?
2. Should I still be able to attempt and have sex with other women at any point during this process?
3. Should I limit what my wife communicates to me about her experiences, even if I don't get off on them, because that's triggering the "fantasy" type thing in my head?
4. Has anyone else gone through a recovery in an open relationship? What did that look like?
5. Will my progress move faster if I just forget about orgasms entirely for a while (still getting my wife off through various means)?
I'm really hopeful about my journey, and I feel super inspired by all of the accounts I read here. I have the support of my wife, and I feel like I can actually make a change for the better, though I just need reassurance that I'm doing it the best way.