Fighting the Good Fight

Hello.  Im Andrew, 55, from Australia, aka Andy.  Last June,  I found that other lot, NoFap.com,  and was very active on that platform,  with the same username and avatar.  In fact, right now if you check out NoFap's Notable Members, bizarrely I am at top of the list as the member with "Most Likes" (six thousand and something).  But NoFap and I have parted ways, and I am no longer a supporter of that place. 

In the past year, Ive come to terms at last with my SSA.  I joined the Aystralian Army at age 18, and finally got out several years ago. Went into another profession,  but had a breakdown at the start of last year which has pushed me onto this road of rediscovery.

I will write lots more soon, but thanks.  It's good to be here.

Welcome, Andy. I have found the folks on this site very helpful and non-judgmental. Feel free to say whatever is on your mind.
-JJ

Hey thanks JJ!  Will be better when I get near a proper keyboard.... 

Well,  it's  beautiful morning in North Queensland, Australia!  The very humid, tropical (and even cyclone-prone) weather of the past weeks has given way to this very mild and rather beautiful day!

In my journey over the past year,  I've found that the best way to destroy PMO is to see this quest not only as a struggle against a particular act (porn etc) but about the transformation of my whole life --  physical fitness,  diet,  past-times --- the whole box and dice.  Sexuality and sexual expression find their life in the wider context of who I am.

Because of my SSA,  I lived a very closeted-life,  and found expression through dangerous "inner cIrcle" behaviours which ultimately got me into trouble with police,  the magistrates court,  and my whole life turned into a nightmare.  2016 was a year in hell, certainly. 

Today,  I feel like I have turned a corner.  I've just moved into a new rented house,  and started an employment that doesn't pay anything close to what I was getting as Major in the Australian Army,  or as a health-professional in my later "career" --- but by heck,  I really ENJOY this job,  and I'm enjoying the direction my life is now heading.  It's about living wholesomely,  and about living truthfully.

People find me a very kind-hearted and loyal person.  I have mild post-trauma issues from war service in Iraq in 04/05,  and rather than hardening me against humanity, it's made me more in love with it,  with the fundamental belief that friendship and kindness is the only way to go.  I have an affinity for people who are suffering,  especially those suffering from psychological impairments. 

Presently,  I do not have a Significant Other (SO) and live by myself.  How or whether that changes now or in the years ahead will also be part of my quest.

Anyway,  time to think about lunch!!!  Cheers.

Welcome Andy, Good to see your doing well and keep up the good work.