Do you think i am addicted?

Hello everyone, i found and started PMO at the age of 12, after that i did it frequently (mostly 1 time a day) up to 20 years old, i was pretty Deep in at around 14-17 i guess.
Moving on to more hardcore stuff etc, it was the old stuff shemale etc, even zoo, felt disgusted afterwards.

When i got 21 i found my gf and we have been together now for 2 years. In the beginning of the relationship i was "Clean" for like 5-6 months i dont know, but i started after that, but much less frequent, perhaps 1-2 times a week and i have used less hardcore stuff and it has been like that until now. I have somewhat ED, lose erection between the position-changing in like 5 seconds, i usually have to "fap it up".
Find myself fantisizing during foreplay (not Always tho). But i have never had a "rock hard erection" as long as i can remember, i can Always push in pretty much at the sides and my glans isnt Always filled etc.

I Went a round for 90 Days without PMO but i had sex sometimes, had some major libido drop etc, I have relapsed two or Three times after these 90 Days, my guess is it was because i saw no improvement, nothing in erections, or my mind, didnt feel this happiness everyone is speaking of, like being greatful from the weather or whatever. I will admit that during these 90 Days there was a few times that i thought about sexual stuff etc, and when i do this i feel the rush i get, which i assume is a dopamine squirt.

I havent been able to appreciate the small things for as long as i can remember, having a hard time being interested in others problems or whatever, i mostly care about myself and i even find myself fantizising about totally other stuff all the time while listening to someone talking to me, and im just sitting there saying "yea yea ok, ok" while thinking of totally other stuff.

So my question, can i be addicted when i had a break when i met my gf and i reduced the amount of fapping and also the "grade of hardness" of the porn?

edit: morning Wood is very inconsistent and very weak if i have it at all, zero spontaneous erections
When i try to just touch it i feel no sensation at all, but as fast as i  see something arousing like a Picture or a video on Facebook i feel a fast rush and i get tempted to touch, with imagination about porn scenarios i do feel  sensation.


I really want my problem to be the porn, so i know what i have to do to get rid of it...
I just want a normal Life.
thank you

Yes.  Sounds like addiction and PIED.

Try a hard reboot for at LEAST 90 days.  No porn, no masturbating, no orgasm.  (No PMO)


Not only will your brain reboot back to 'normal', but you'll feel better, and any sexual side effects will disappear.

If you're rebooting, one thing to watch for is flatline, where your libido drops, penis shrinks and gets less sensitive, depression/anxiety, sleep gets screwed up, etc.

I'd advise you do as much research as possible.  Read the PIED and REBOOTING websites. 

Watch the videos on this website.  They're excellent.

As i wrote i have rebooted 3 months but relapsed due to no improvements.

I havent had normal libido for 4-5months, but i could fap to porn anytime.


Its hard to avoid orgasms and sex with a girlfriend.

I'm currently at 8 weeks no porn, but my wife and I fooled around a couple times and I made myself O.

Didn't like that so I decided to go hard mode.  NO P,  NO M,  NO O.  Period.  None.

I'm now at almost 4 weeks no PMO.

My wife and I still fool around, mostly me doing things to her.  She O's every time, but neither one of us touches my penis. 

She's understanding of the situation and respects my wish to reboot.

So it can be done, even with a SO.

GOOD LUCK!

Ok Thanks.

Any others who have opinions?

Is it the porn and dopamine issues that is My problem?

The reason for My somewhat ed, not being able to appreciate small things in life etc?

The fact you can fap to porn no problem shows me its most likely pied.

Sounds like it. I would quit for a long period as well and see if the erection issue improves.

A period of abstinence from p doesn't mean you are cured. P addiction causes lifelong brain changes that return whenever you start using. By abstinence you can weaken or "reverse" them as long as you stay abstinent.