pruthukkc
Active Member
Hi rebooters! I found this site 2 years back and created ac to changed my pmo habit. I read so many peoples story, watched Garry Wilson's ted talk and also subscribed reboot nation and noah church's youtube channel after gaining lots of information and reading so many stories i convinced that i am addicted to p because lots of stories are similar to mine.
When i was 12 years old i started m. and its natural i guess but after watching late night adult movies on HBO i turned on and started my fapping journey. Then i just m. and watched some times late night adult shows on T.V, not every day but once a week. After 3 years my parents gifted me a 3G internet modem and that time i had also my bedroom so i just closed my door and watched softcore p video on youtube, hollywood movies adult scene etc and jerked of at age of 16 i had girlfriend but when i met her i always felt nervous and had problem with brainfogg we dated in facebook and i never intimate with her i loved her so much but when i met her i cant build intimacy and after 1.5 year she dumped me after that i was totally depressed and turned into p videos. I dont knew that time whats reason she left me, whats wrong with me. My real addiction started at age of 17 and then i always used p videos for m. before that i always fantasizing and then m. After using frequently i started realizing that this is serious problem to me because i always felt uncomfortable in social life i had problem with self esteem and self confidence. One day i searching about m addiction and i found garry willson and noah be church's videos and suddenly my eyes were open i finally knew whats wrong with me. So i kept researching on addiction and i realized that i am porn addict after some time i found this forum and i created account i started my journey i relapsed so many times in past 2 years my highest streak was 28 days. I realize that this addiction is really strong and if you want to reboot you must aware about triggers, withdrawals and whats happening with you. Today i relapsed and i break my new year goal so now i am completely focusing on reboot and i will update my journal every day.
When i was 12 years old i started m. and its natural i guess but after watching late night adult movies on HBO i turned on and started my fapping journey. Then i just m. and watched some times late night adult shows on T.V, not every day but once a week. After 3 years my parents gifted me a 3G internet modem and that time i had also my bedroom so i just closed my door and watched softcore p video on youtube, hollywood movies adult scene etc and jerked of at age of 16 i had girlfriend but when i met her i always felt nervous and had problem with brainfogg we dated in facebook and i never intimate with her i loved her so much but when i met her i cant build intimacy and after 1.5 year she dumped me after that i was totally depressed and turned into p videos. I dont knew that time whats reason she left me, whats wrong with me. My real addiction started at age of 17 and then i always used p videos for m. before that i always fantasizing and then m. After using frequently i started realizing that this is serious problem to me because i always felt uncomfortable in social life i had problem with self esteem and self confidence. One day i searching about m addiction and i found garry willson and noah be church's videos and suddenly my eyes were open i finally knew whats wrong with me. So i kept researching on addiction and i realized that i am porn addict after some time i found this forum and i created account i started my journey i relapsed so many times in past 2 years my highest streak was 28 days. I realize that this addiction is really strong and if you want to reboot you must aware about triggers, withdrawals and whats happening with you. Today i relapsed and i break my new year goal so now i am completely focusing on reboot and i will update my journal every day.