Not sure if new nofap is the problem

Not sure where to start really I am 50 years old my name is John for the last four years maybe more I haven?t had any morning wood and slowly over that time I realised that my performance with lovemaking/sex has gone downhill to the point where I don?t actually feel any desire whatsoever to have sex if I stimulate myself I can achieve an erection so I think the plumbing as it were is all okay however spontaneous erections  during the day or night or morning do not happen and I don?t feel alive downstairs if you know what I mean
My porn habit started many years ago but never I don?t think I was really addicted just used to get off now and again to a bit of porn , my sex life was always okay , good in fact , about four or five years ago I started smoking weed and there was a major link for me between weed and good sex !! sex felt fantastic I was more aggressive turned on and the partner I was with loved it and so did I sometimes I would smoke weed and watch porn four hours
Then  I noticed I was taking longer and longer to get to orgasm with a partner and also with porn then noticed loss of morning erections  then noticed I preferred porn to sex sex seemed like too much work now I feel dead in the cock department don?t have any morning erections and no desire to have sex although I want to be like that again
Went to dr and my testosterone in on low side but normal he says
Tried self administering testosterone for 6 weeks and felt strong in gym but no sexual difference at all
Then found nofap and was like a light at the end of a dark tunnel As I seem to have all of the symptoms brain fog depression no sex drive no libido Taking longer to finish etc
It?s been 3 weeks no pmo but feel the same
Have I been in a flat line before even starting nofap as had the flatline symptoms before starting nofap and since nofap I still feel the same
Will I ever get back to myself again ?
John

Hey John.  I'm exactly where you are now.  I'm 55 and have pretty much flatlined for a couple of years.  It was often even flatline while watching P.  I never got into what I consider seriously nasty stuff, but had still progressed to what I would have considered pretty "Ewww" 5 or 10 years ago.

I'm even having the same wonderings as you: "will I ever overcome this?  Have a damaged myself permanently?"  I realized that some of my problem might be age, but I think the vast majority of my issue relates to PMO.

I hope you start to feel better about yourself.  When I have the urge, I try to get on here to read stories like yours and from others who have been struggling longer.  I hope you keep coming back here to try to take solace with others while you find your way out from under.

nice in a way to know we are not alone, have you just started the no fap too then

I'm about a month in.  Last PMO was Nov 2.  My best defenses by far has been staying active (difficult right now as I recently lost my longtime job as well), interacting with family (mainly my wife, but also brothers and sister), and visiting this forum to read about and be supported by others dealing with the same issues.  I expect this week will be a test as I will be away from home for 4 nights.  Going in with a positive attitude, knowing that if I'm strong for the next few days, it will be a big win.  Not the war, just another battle, but a tough one.

Expect it will take me a few more weeks/months to start to feel "normal" again.  Maybe you too?  This bad habit formed over years, I don't expect it will disappear in a few weeks. 

Stay strong!

i dont seem to be having any difficulty at all abstaing, its been 3 weeks no pmo, this whats concerning me, i have no libido at all for sex or porn! and this has been the case for last few years , im hoping doing no pmo might help, but it seems that most people on here have drive for porn but have problems with real life sex , i hope your 4days go well sorry about job