Hello, my name is Mike. I am 44 years old and when I was a teen I started to masturbate as a way of coping with life. This behavior continued into my marriage at age 25. I started watching porn shortly after which turned into an addiction. My wife has confronted me several times and my secret life has destroyed my marriage. About four months ago my wife confronted me again, at this point I had cut down on my porn use to maybe once or twice a month, but I started a new compulsive behavior of looking at pictures of younger girls on Facebook. Even though I wasn?t masturbating to them I was still feeding my addiction. I have experienced pied, Loss of erection during sex, and no erections except for morning wood maybe twice a week. I have the internet locked on my phone, no Facebook, porn or YouTube for four months. I have not masturbated in about 6 months, although I have sex with my wife several times, but have lost erections and have not been able to orgasm many times. My wife is beautiful and has a high libido, I am very attractive to her and can get an erection by just kissing her but I can?t by just looking at her. This of course this is very upsetting to her on top of all of trauma I have caused her. My libido is totally gone, I have never felt this way before it is very scary to me that I have rewired my brain to real women and young girls when I am out in public, it is so bad that my wife says that when we are out together I notice every woman and young girl, I really don?t remember a lot of the women she mentions. She says that I am constantly scanning, this behavior has intensified over the last 6 months.I believe it is because I stopped looking online and started a new addiction. I was never like this before, I would notice attractive women but I would not be so obsessive like this. Is my brain to the point of no return? Has anyone experienced this?
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Mike
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Mike