My fianc? is leaving me today

Steve4866

New Member
I can?t stop her pain, it?s too much for her to bare. D day was in November. Completely no pmo or mo since. Flatlined shortly after. Ed meds were hit or miss, ive had too much sexual anxiety for the viagra to work fully.The ed has completely killed both of our confidence. She feels that I want the type of girls in the videos and that I?m not sexually attracted to her. I?ve tried everything to be more intimate with her but until I realized that I had to face my problem and stop trying to hide it then I would always blame everything else and never stop this insane cycle. She didn?t deserve any of this. All she did was love me and wanted my love in return. But I love her with all of my heart but to her she thinks I love p. I don?t. I want to have the physical connection I just didn?t realize or want to realize that p was my problem. I just wish I could take all of this pain from her. It?s almost unbearable to face all of the hurt I?ve caused her. I wish there was something I could tell her to make her realize what I?m going through. But then I?m tired of seeing her hurt and she doesn?t deserve to go through this process of rewiring my brain to be physical in the physical world. I know I can beat this but the time it takes to heal will be too much for her to have to bare. It?s selfish of me to want her to stay when I know she is able to find happiness after me.But I know I?m losing the best thing that?s ever happened to me bc I was ignorant of this pmo problem.
 

Steve4866

New Member
This s very true but this break up is going to break me. It?s not going to be easy to live with the guilt and shame but hopefully I can somehow move on one day
 

Redfire03

Active Member
Its ruff man. But trust me its better now than later. I have learned alot durring my seperation time gets better. But you will have it easier with you not being married. Just focus on no pmo and maybe just maybe in the future you can rekindle . Until then focus on you and a reboot.
 

aquarius25

Respected Member
As a wife, I completely agree with Redfire03! Focus on becoming the man you want to be. She probably wouldn't want you to live in shame, and it helps nobody. The past is the past, accept it, learn from it, and move forward knowing your weaknesses and making a plan to not let those things get the best of you again. Focus on becoming the person you want to be in this world, living the life you want to live. My heart breaks for you and her. I pray for healing for both of you!
 
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