masturbating during a reboot

I have been gone 32 days hardmode (no P, no M, no O) and this evening I made a conscious decision to MO. Basically, I had been feeling a lot of tension and discomfort in my groin area due to semen retention, and in the last 24 hours the dull pain (like when you're dehydrated) had spread down the back of my leg and was more than uncomfortable - almost painful.

It goes without saying that I didn't use any stimuli to masturbate, nor did I fantasise. I focused on sensation alone and I was surprised how I was able to maintain an erection and ejaculate with zero thinking about porn or even sex or women. To be honest, it was an intense experience, and not necessarily pleasurable. The discomfort in my groin area disappeared immediately. It was like one of the very first orgasms I remember having when I first started masturbating as a young teenager. It was actually slightly painful, but a definite sense of releasing something I needed to from my body. There was obviously a lot of ejaculate, but it seemed quite watery, not viscous and white, as I was expecting.

I have mixed feelings, as I am not going to break my longest hardmode streak (last spring I went 40+ days, but interestingly, I had a wet dream at some point in the middle). However, I feel this was something I needed to do for physical reasons. I am very aware that I have to be extremely vigilant in the next 48 hours for any chaser effect. Somehow I feel like I'm not going to experience it, as the MO felt very non-sexual, and I definitely feel like few of the neural pathways from PMO would have been reinforced, as it was an experience far-removed from my usual (previous) PMO habit.

I would be interested in hearing other rebooters opinions on how masturbating has affected their reboots. Obviously, I plan to go again as long as I can hardmode, but I am definitely not one of those people who believe in the supernatural powers of semen retention. I feel like it is a natural thing for a man to release semen every once in a while. I guess the key is to try to not get into a habit of MO, and try to use it only as a physical release, unrelated to fantasizing, or even sex.

What do you guys think??

Thanks a lot.

I feel it will set you back. Semen retention will help the most. Let your body take care of it "wet dreams". Stop pmo and take a long break from it and social media and focus on you.

Thanks for your reply. I have only PMO'd 2 or 3 times since March of last year, and I have no intention of PMOing ever again. I don't use social media and am very much focused on myself (and my family).

Since MOing yesterday, I actually feel a lot better, both physically and emotionally. No more physical tension or discomfort, and I have had zero urges to MO again or look at any artificial stimuli (I even dreamt last night that I wanted to look at some softcore porn images online, but reasoned to myself and didn't do it in the dream!). To be honest, it feels like a weight off my shoulder.

We'll see, I guess. I am going to continue hardmode again for the meantime and I will take stock again in ten days or so.

I felt it better not to track day by day. I just focus on me and usually just calculate by the month and mark it off.  I just knoe i will never look back and i know i will over come this with more time.