GX70
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Hello Folks
I'm a 44 yo gay man. After my last sexual disaster with a partner, somebody who pretty much embodies everything I want from a partner (which makes it even more shocking for me to fail in that scenario) I decided to look around for info about ED. Within a few minutes I found Gabe's videos and ideas that immediately clicked with me.
I have been masturbating since the age of 9/10 and I think the rare few times I missed a day was literally when I was flying or traveling. Not even feeling sick with a flu or uber tired would stop me. Porn came in at first, in my life, with vhs tapes, then progressively, as I got internet in late 90s', developed as a compulsive habit, through a computer.
In the last 6/7 years, with high speed internet porn, it literally went out of control. I could easily PMO up to 5/6 times a day in combination with smoking weed (which makes it even more addictive). DE was first warning sign, ED came shortly after.
Progressively my sexual performance decayed to zero. But still I could not connect porn to ED, blaming stress, my partners, PA?whatever. I knew that amount of masturbation was insane but didn't connect that to porn. So well.. I have PIED. Plain and simple.
On 8/20/2015 I decided to start Rebooting. I'm pretty much a 'go cold turkey' kind of person and I'm usually thrilled by changes when they seem to make sense, so it felt very natural. It has been very similar to when I turned Vegan overnight.
I have been flatlining ever since. I dont even think about sex at all. To be honest, the fact I quit the habit has such a good effect on me (I was essentially numb/sleepy/out of energy all the time) that those few moments PMO appears to be an option to kill boredom, I quickly sack it off. At least for now, its easier than I expected (If one told me I could stop masturbating for even a couple of days I would have though..no way).
I'm just a little concerned I will flatline forever and I will never be back as the guy I used to be... cant wait to have my life back.
I'm a 44 yo gay man. After my last sexual disaster with a partner, somebody who pretty much embodies everything I want from a partner (which makes it even more shocking for me to fail in that scenario) I decided to look around for info about ED. Within a few minutes I found Gabe's videos and ideas that immediately clicked with me.
I have been masturbating since the age of 9/10 and I think the rare few times I missed a day was literally when I was flying or traveling. Not even feeling sick with a flu or uber tired would stop me. Porn came in at first, in my life, with vhs tapes, then progressively, as I got internet in late 90s', developed as a compulsive habit, through a computer.
In the last 6/7 years, with high speed internet porn, it literally went out of control. I could easily PMO up to 5/6 times a day in combination with smoking weed (which makes it even more addictive). DE was first warning sign, ED came shortly after.
Progressively my sexual performance decayed to zero. But still I could not connect porn to ED, blaming stress, my partners, PA?whatever. I knew that amount of masturbation was insane but didn't connect that to porn. So well.. I have PIED. Plain and simple.
On 8/20/2015 I decided to start Rebooting. I'm pretty much a 'go cold turkey' kind of person and I'm usually thrilled by changes when they seem to make sense, so it felt very natural. It has been very similar to when I turned Vegan overnight.
I have been flatlining ever since. I dont even think about sex at all. To be honest, the fact I quit the habit has such a good effect on me (I was essentially numb/sleepy/out of energy all the time) that those few moments PMO appears to be an option to kill boredom, I quickly sack it off. At least for now, its easier than I expected (If one told me I could stop masturbating for even a couple of days I would have though..no way).
I'm just a little concerned I will flatline forever and I will never be back as the guy I used to be... cant wait to have my life back.