Doubt making me tense

I am on my 53th day of no fap and no pmo so today as i have a long distance relationship with my fiance so we got really deep into the sexual call and On sunday morning she asked after soooooo many days i wanna see ur sperm the way she said it that love for her made me do it  and then after disconnecting the phone i ejaculated like 4 times in the rest of the day by thinking all of sexual video call with her and thoughts but but not even a single time i thought of ejaculating through porn when i was ejaculating.
 So my question is do i need to take it as a relapse or not nd i  dont think it as a relapse cuz i did it for the one whom i am gona marry but still want to ask.
Even if i see her naked i get an erection for 2-3 minutes without fap nd then it goes.
Do i need to reset the counter.
Please tell me my brothers clear my doubt i m so tensed that cant sleeep i have worked hard to reach this 55 day streak not getting clear answer.
I am on my 55th day streak so do i need to reset my counter.
My penis also looks thin and sack is big dont know whether it because of the beating i have done in a day or flatline happened as i m on 55th day clear my this doubt also please.
Please tell please clear my 2 doubts shud i reset my counter and next why my penis looks like thin with big sack.

Hey man, congrats on 53 (or 55) days clean! This is the start of a better and healthier future. As far as whether it?s a relapse or not, I?m saying yes it is. Not really sure what your goals or motivations are- just trying to ditch porn? Trying to reverse sexual dysfunctions? Even though it?s not porn in the traditional sense, it is still not a real, live, in-person encounter and will still activate those brain pathways affected by porn (check out Your Brain on Porn [YBOP] and Gary Wilson?s videos for the full explanation). Also from Gabe?s experience, avoid artificial stimulation. (?If it?s not real, no deal?). Definitely easier said than done.
As far as the shrunken appearance of your stuff, this is also another impact of porn use. Your brain needs a break. This is also covered on YBOP.  Many people find a break from or severe reduction in orgasms helpful for a short time. I suppose if you are in a long distance relationship, that would make things a bit easier, the only struggle is with yourself. Aim for 30, then 90 days hard mode (no O) and see what kind of results you get. It would be worthwhile explaining the problem to your lady. She will likely figure out something is not right sooner or later and having this in the open between you two will help. I?d recommend keeping a journal (written or on here) to help track progress. At the very least, read others journals and educate yourself on the brain science of porn. Visit here often, there?s a lot to learn from others. We are all struggling to apply these concepts and recover from this garbage. I wish you the very best in your recovery.

You know this guy name noah church he told me its not relpase according to him as i didnt involved porn here.
If i ejaculate will flatline occur ??
Cuz totally penis feel different now.

Noah Church has great videos and info too! Not too sure what to tell you. I?d say there?s a couple of ideas of noFap/ pornfree. If you feel it?s unhealthy and are avoiding PMO from a wellness standpoint, you might be fine for now. It?s not great.  I?d still say to avoid video call sex activities. Understand that you are still spiking dopamine and exciting your brain to images on a screen, which can lead to conditioning.
If you are trying to recover from PIED or DE it is critical to avoid anything artificial (on-screen, print, etc). Inconsistent or short lasting erections can be a precursor to PIED...

Bro if i have sexual video call with my fiance then without fapping i use to get erection for 2-3 minutes just by pleasuring her by my words and when she moans i get erection seeing that but after 53 days she asked me for taking out sperm i did just cuz i love her and after disconnecting the phone when i was ejaculating to my thoughts when i saw her naked nd all i dint had a feeling to watch porn while doing it. Before starting this exual video call i asked noah he told u can just dont bring porn back he told me but now i m also stopping sexual video call.
Just this thing is stuck that should i reset or nt.
And bro how does penis looks during flatline cuz my balls has gotten big and penis is really smalll and penis is not hanging like it use to be but shrinks very less before bt now its different.

Not sure man. The other idea out there is, if you have to ask, it probably is a relapse.
I?m trying to help, forgive me if I come across as being difficult. I mean, you?re still avoiding PMO and that is a big step. Maybe just carry on and don?t get too hung up on this.

Anybody else have a similar situation? How did you handle it?

Bro bro i m saying before i use to ejaculate heavily nd smoke then we both met had successfull sex like 1.5 years back thing i m saying suck strong erection but after this thing came up that fucking thing came in brain will i be able to perform everything started making me worry
Cuz i have heard stories men not getting up on wedding nights and all i also started imagining my self started crying nd all stuff
I have just forgot how her touch aroused me nd when we met i hope it happen the same when we meet for weddding
We have a long distance relationship
One day i was pmoing so wasnt able to get hard after fifth ejaculation so i got scared came across this pied thing then started journey
Sorry for everything is jumbled up
Gona get married on 25 aug 2019 so worried nthing else

I disagree, to a point.  I think that since you are not in the same location as your lady, that your sexting call would be considered sex and not pmoing.  BUT, if you did this too often it could definitely turn into pmoing.  You could easily fall into the trap of using sext calls with her to get your hit.

It is your call on this one.  Are you doing hard mode or soft mode?  If you are doing soft mode than this could count as sex and retiring.
  It is up to you.

Rich

We do it like twice ka week on weekends but now we have stopped it cuz nd do it directly on wedding wud be more adrenaline in blood and i am going on hard mode now even if a hot lady wearing tight clothes goes by i am not looking at her not even watching pics of heroines scarlett and alexandra i am sorry