200 Days

A recovering porn addict, I am currently 200 days (7 months) clean.  I've really begun to feel the difference in my life.  I'm much more confident and focused at my job, my fiancee says that I have become a more compassionate and attentive partner.  Our sex life has also improved in both frequency and satisfaction.  But even with all this positive news, thoughts and urges to get back into my old habits creep back into my mind from time to time. The little voice in my head telling me how much I miss porn.  But I try to remind myself of what I've accomplished, what my addiction did to me and those I love, and to remember the future I'm fighting for.  I know these thoughts may never fully go away, but I refuse to let them beat me. 

I have made so many embarrassing mistakes, and yet here I am beating back something that's held me back from being the man I know I can be.  If I can overcome, anyone can.

WOW, that's amazing dude. Well done, this is truly inspirational. My question is how did you fight back against the early cravings ? And which period of quitting was the hardest for you ?

The beginning is easily the hardest.  You're trying to reprogram your brain away from behaviors that it's been accustomed to for decades.  What I learned from threapy was to replace those behaviors with positive ones.  I would play in a softball league, do yoga with my fiancee, go biking, etc.  I also kept a journal to write thoughts and progress, that alone sometimes helped me chill out.  I also worked hard at become knowledgeable about the addiction.  I would recommend reading books like Pornography Trap and Sex Addiction 101.  Terry Crews, who is also a recovering porn addict, has a YouTube channel that has a lot of information and motivation.  I highly recommend checking that out.  But most of all I worked on my self-esteem.  That often goes hand-in-hand with recovering.  Once you see the success of your recovery, you'll see you are capable of more than you previously thought.

Thanks a lot. i try to check out those books and of course YouTube channel. Best wishes