Hey guys,
I am 19 year old virgin as a result of PIED. I never watched porn excessively but started very young and moved into more hardcore stuff at a young age thanks to having older brothers. I also started to watch porn before I started masturbating so my brain has been wired incorrectly. I've abstained from everything for 80 days now (since January 1st) and I'm starting to notice improvements (occasional morning wood + can get erect from touch although NOT fully strong) I don't have any cravings to go back to bad habits but at the same time I don't seem to have much sex drive, I also have low energy (but feel more confident somehow?) and my focus on producing music is at an all time low. That said there are days when I have all these traits in full force.
The problem I'm having, and I really don't mean to sound arrogant when I say this.. But I do a lot of big DJ gigs around Europe and I have a lot of girls approaching me... The issue is I'm too worried to take things further as I have had countless times of ED with girls and its been super embarrassing (always blame the alcohol)! I'm not sure what to do and all my friends are starting to take notice. I just want to recover fully before I start getting intimate with girls again... but I don't know when that will be and when I will know!
Overall this is a more positive post than negative. I have noticed improvements and understand it can take a long time, so let that be inspiration for anyone at the start of their journey ;D
Big thanks to this community x
I am 19 year old virgin as a result of PIED. I never watched porn excessively but started very young and moved into more hardcore stuff at a young age thanks to having older brothers. I also started to watch porn before I started masturbating so my brain has been wired incorrectly. I've abstained from everything for 80 days now (since January 1st) and I'm starting to notice improvements (occasional morning wood + can get erect from touch although NOT fully strong) I don't have any cravings to go back to bad habits but at the same time I don't seem to have much sex drive, I also have low energy (but feel more confident somehow?) and my focus on producing music is at an all time low. That said there are days when I have all these traits in full force.
The problem I'm having, and I really don't mean to sound arrogant when I say this.. But I do a lot of big DJ gigs around Europe and I have a lot of girls approaching me... The issue is I'm too worried to take things further as I have had countless times of ED with girls and its been super embarrassing (always blame the alcohol)! I'm not sure what to do and all my friends are starting to take notice. I just want to recover fully before I start getting intimate with girls again... but I don't know when that will be and when I will know!
Overall this is a more positive post than negative. I have noticed improvements and understand it can take a long time, so let that be inspiration for anyone at the start of their journey ;D
Big thanks to this community x