I can?t stop her pain, it?s too much for her to bare. D day was in November. Completely no pmo or mo since. Flatlined shortly after. Ed meds were hit or miss, ive had too much sexual anxiety for the viagra to work fully.The ed has completely killed both of our confidence. She feels that I want the type of girls in the videos and that I?m not sexually attracted to her. I?ve tried everything to be more intimate with her but until I realized that I had to face my problem and stop trying to hide it then I would always blame everything else and never stop this insane cycle. She didn?t deserve any of this. All she did was love me and wanted my love in return. But I love her with all of my heart but to her she thinks I love p. I don?t. I want to have the physical connection I just didn?t realize or want to realize that p was my problem. I just wish I could take all of this pain from her. It?s almost unbearable to face all of the hurt I?ve caused her. I wish there was something I could tell her to make her realize what I?m going through. But then I?m tired of seeing her hurt and she doesn?t deserve to go through this process of rewiring my brain to be physical in the physical world. I know I can beat this but the time it takes to heal will be too much for her to have to bare. It?s selfish of me to want her to stay when I know she is able to find happiness after me.But I know I?m losing the best thing that?s ever happened to me bc I was ignorant of this pmo problem.