TheNightPorter1987
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This is a post of mine from NoFap. Just wanted to post here as well to share my story.
I'm 27 years old. I've loved porn for as long as I can remember (seriously, I used to find magazines as a child and was fascinated by them). Started Fapping to mags at about 13, then at about 20 years old discovered internet porn and it all went down hill.
In the past i've never had trouble getting it up even when drunk, but after I started on Internet porn I began to get random bouts of ED with my girlfriend (Even though she was ridiculously hot in my eyes). Looking back this is also when my social anxiety started.
Fast forward six years - my relationship with that girl fell apart and it was largely down to how disinterested I became in her due to porn. My social anxiety is so bad that without alcohol i struggle to converse with anyone without going red and sweating and generally wanting the earth to swallow me. My porn use has become warped. The ever present need for a better high has currently led me to develop a liking for shemale porn which is completely against my sexual orientation, and no i'm not a closet homosexual. I seriously f**cking love women - they are all I think about and all I want is to be in a normal healthy relationship with a girl I love.
This all came to a head for me last month. There is a girl i've been into for about a year now (seriously hot) i'm practically in love with her. I finally get my chance and......nothing. There she is naked in my bed and my mind wants it more than anything but my dick just isnt working. I could'nt believe it. Got seriously depressed after that.
At first I thought it was alcohol related so I cut downn on drinking. I also quit smoking (yep, thats how gutted I was that I flopped on this girl - I just cold turkey quit smoking) But after a while it started to occur to me that I never get rendomm erections anymore from everyday stuff like just seeing a woman in a short skirt etc.
And where did my morning wood go????
And the finale....even the weirdest of porn is now failing to get me fully hard. A quick google search led me a site called your brain and porn which basically explained everything. Who would have thought that porn was causing me LOSE interest in sex??
Them I came here and saw all the success stories from guys who have gone through this exact same thing. I'm 5 days in to no porn and no fap and I feel better already. The last 2 nights Ive woken up with random hard on's - In forgot what that was even like.
I'm determined to get my life back! Even this doesnt cure my social anxiety, I atleast want to be able to enoy sex again.
I'm 27 years old. I've loved porn for as long as I can remember (seriously, I used to find magazines as a child and was fascinated by them). Started Fapping to mags at about 13, then at about 20 years old discovered internet porn and it all went down hill.
In the past i've never had trouble getting it up even when drunk, but after I started on Internet porn I began to get random bouts of ED with my girlfriend (Even though she was ridiculously hot in my eyes). Looking back this is also when my social anxiety started.
Fast forward six years - my relationship with that girl fell apart and it was largely down to how disinterested I became in her due to porn. My social anxiety is so bad that without alcohol i struggle to converse with anyone without going red and sweating and generally wanting the earth to swallow me. My porn use has become warped. The ever present need for a better high has currently led me to develop a liking for shemale porn which is completely against my sexual orientation, and no i'm not a closet homosexual. I seriously f**cking love women - they are all I think about and all I want is to be in a normal healthy relationship with a girl I love.
This all came to a head for me last month. There is a girl i've been into for about a year now (seriously hot) i'm practically in love with her. I finally get my chance and......nothing. There she is naked in my bed and my mind wants it more than anything but my dick just isnt working. I could'nt believe it. Got seriously depressed after that.
At first I thought it was alcohol related so I cut downn on drinking. I also quit smoking (yep, thats how gutted I was that I flopped on this girl - I just cold turkey quit smoking) But after a while it started to occur to me that I never get rendomm erections anymore from everyday stuff like just seeing a woman in a short skirt etc.
And where did my morning wood go????
And the finale....even the weirdest of porn is now failing to get me fully hard. A quick google search led me a site called your brain and porn which basically explained everything. Who would have thought that porn was causing me LOSE interest in sex??
Them I came here and saw all the success stories from guys who have gone through this exact same thing. I'm 5 days in to no porn and no fap and I feel better already. The last 2 nights Ive woken up with random hard on's - In forgot what that was even like.
I'm determined to get my life back! Even this doesnt cure my social anxiety, I atleast want to be able to enoy sex again.