Its time to change my life and kill this addiction once and for all

Hey guys, my name is Jay and I've been a porn addict for almost 12 years now. I first got hooked onto porn back in 2006 when I was 14 years. I didn't realize that I was addicted to it until 3 years later when I tried to stop watching it but relapsed only a couple of days later. Since then I've been trying to quit watching it but it wasn't until 2013 when I had a breakthrough. I was able to quit watching porn from May 2013 until November 2014. I ended up relapsing in 2014 because I was depressed about being a virgin at age 22  and not being able to attract women. Since then I've been really struggling to beat this addiction. I've also started using escorts last year to see if having sex with real women would help me beat this addiction but it didn't and unfortunately it made my addiction worse. During that time I discovered that masturbating to porn quickly for the last decade gave me premature ejaculation. I can't even last past 5 seconds with a girl in bed, its embarrassing. I now realize at age 26 that its time to start taking this serious and finally defeat this addiction once and for all. I've also decided to quit masturbation for 6 months just so I can give my brain a break from sexual stimulation.

I will post here daily to see my progress through this battle.

 

Welcome Jay!
This is the place where you can set yourself straight once and for all! No doubts there. Sounds like youve fucked your brain up to the point where you are now wired to jizz as quickly as possible. And, as you can see, your body cant distinguish between that artificial sexual experience and a real life one.
But dont worry, You stick to this reboot thing and youll be a sexual tyranosaurus! Its not only the sexual benefits that youll experience either. Every single aspect of your life will change for the better. Thats a fact.

Day 1

So far so good. I haven't peaked at porn once today. I'm also gonna go clubbing tonight with a buddy of mine. I need to get out more and socialize with people, especially with women. I need to concur my fear of women once and for all or else I will be single forever lol.

@Reformed Fapper Thanks for the support bro. I know that I can beat this addiction. Its gonna be tough but I know that I shouldn't give up.

I haven't updated this journal in the last couple of days due to work but so far I'm doing well. I haven't peeked at porn now for almost a week. I still gotta keep grinding though. Its gonna take a while for me to reverse 12 years of damage to my brain.

Peace

So far so good guys. I haven't watched or even peaked at porn for two weeks now. The urge to watch porn has disappeared from me now. I would usually watch it on a Monday or Tuesday but so far I haven't had any urges. I still gotta long way to go but this is positive news for me.

I truly believe now that I can beat this addiction.

Officially made it through a month of not watching porn. Its still gonna be a long battle for me but I believe that I can finally defeat this addiction.

Throughout the past month I've been doing a lot of self-reflecting and came to the realization that my dating life has been fucking terrible because of my fear of women. I haven't had a girlfriend since the 7th grade and that was 13 years ago(ya pathetic I know). But I realize now that if want to improve my dating life I will have to face my fears and start approaching women.

Some drugs give a strong sense of purpose.

Six weeks into this reboot and my urge to watch porn has completely disappeared. But I've been dealing with a lot of depression lately. In retrospective I hate myself for having a learning disability and for failing in the dating market. I realize that I will have work on accepting myself for who I am and work on my low self-esteem.

M.Salah said:

Some drugs give a strong sense of purpose.

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What do you mean by that???

Wooowww,
Six weeks, What a magnificent willpower.
You are doing great. I think adding up more features to your life would be beneficiary. I mean SPORT!!!!
Go out and beat the fuck out of your self.
If you think you lack self-esteem, so do what I did! find a sympathetic psychologist and express yourself for her/him. Don't let the voices in your head reverberate. Throw them away and look them in the eye.  Believe me, it will work.

Wish you best buddy..

Officially made it to two months without watching porn or fapping. I still have a long way to go to beat this addiction but right now it looks like I'm on the right path. My urge to watch porn and fap has completely gone away. Its the same feeling that I had when I successfully quit watching porn the first time from May 2013 to November 2014.

MoJi said:

Wooowww,
Six weeks, What a magnificent willpower.
You are doing great. I think adding up more features to your life would be beneficiary. I mean SPORT!!!!
Go out and beat the fuck out of your self.
If you think you lack self-esteem, so do what I did! find a sympathetic psychologist and express yourself for her/him. Don't let the voices in your head reverberate. Throw them away and look them in the eye.  Believe me, it will work.

Wish you best buddy..

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Thanks bro and today has been two months since I last watched porn.

Also I've been going out to clubs and concerts but its hard to make friends nowadays. I also need to beat my fear of women or else I will be single for ever lol.

The year is almost done I've made through 10 weeks without watching porn or masturbating. I did however tried to have sex with an escort a week ago and I am still having issues with PE. Hopefully it will eventually go away as I continue on with this reboot.

J_Millz92 said:

The year is almost done I've made through 10 weeks without watching porn or masturbating. I did however tried to have sex with an escort a week ago and I am still having issues with PE. Hopefully it will eventually go away as I continue on with this reboot.

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Congratulation on 10 weeks! This is outstanding progress! You have to keep going that's why I want you to check out my "Free January" challenge. Another month without PMO is always welcome.

Way to go  10 weeks  I am currently at 4 weeks  and feeling strong about it  keep going out  and trying to meet people also look into a hobby  there are always like minded people to be found that way  I suppose if your going to see an escort  tell her of your problem  perhaps she has dealt with it before and could help you  you never know  Cheers and fight on


    Post often it helped me it will help you

changemylife said:

J_Millz92 said:

The year is almost done I've made through 10 weeks without watching porn or masturbating. I did however tried to have sex with an escort a week ago and I am still having issues with PE. Hopefully it will eventually go away as I continue on with this reboot.

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Congratulation on 10 weeks! This is outstanding progress! You have to keep going that's why I want you to check out my "Free January" challenge. Another month without PMO is always welcome.

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Thanks bro

joepanic said:

Way to go  10 weeks  I am currently at 4 weeks  and feeling strong about it  keep going out  and trying to meet people also look into a hobby  there are always like minded people to be found that way  I suppose if your going to see an escort  tell her of your problem  perhaps she has dealt with it before and could help you  you never know  Cheers and fight on


    Post often it helped me it will help you

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Thanks for your words of encouragement bro. And good luck on your reboot. We can beat this addiction

It has officially been 90 days since I last MO'd or PMO'd.  I haven't gone this long without porn in almost 6 years.

J_Millz92 said:

It has officially been 90 days since I last MO'd or PMO'd.  I haven't gone this long without porn in almost 6 years.

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Oh shit! You've made it.