MindOverModem
Active Member
DAY 4
Greetings,
Longtime lurker here, ready to get serious about rebooting. I just set up my account today and I am 4 days porn free.
My background is like so many stories I've read on here. Got into softcore/ late night stuff as a young kid in the midst of ADHD and emotional issues. Nudity seemed to fix everything. Then it was a dial-up connection, then high-speed porn whenever my family wasn't around, then just spending time in my room alone with my laptop.
I grew up to have an active sex life and substance abuse issues. My dependence on drugs, sex, and alcohol lead me to AA and I'm now 4 years clean and sober. Through my 12-Step work I was able to change my relationship with sex and women, but my dependence on porn continued.
I never experienced PEID, but I have noticed a dramatic decline in my sex drive when I'm using a lot of porn and my overall energy and motivation takes a hit too.
I'm ready to be done with porn because I don't like the person who I am when I'm using it and I don't like how much of my time and energy it consumes. Most of all, I want to be free of the obsession that, to me, isn't any different from the other addictions I've struggled with in my life.
Thanks for reading. I'm grateful for the support of this forum.
Day 4
I'm over the "three-day hump." I can tell you first hand that that's a real phenomenon. My strongest cravings so far were yesterday (day 3) and today feels easy compared to the past 3.
>Feeling very moody and restless. I know this will pass, trying to take it easy.
>Have been dealing with some porn fantasy. Had a porn dream last night.
>Getting to sleep hasn't been easy.
>Meditating and exercising more than usual to keep my head straight.
>This first week (maybe 2) I intend to go PMO free as kind of a reset. I can already M without porn, but I don't want to default to porn fantasy. I'm going to hold off until just the sensation is enough.
Greetings,
Longtime lurker here, ready to get serious about rebooting. I just set up my account today and I am 4 days porn free.
My background is like so many stories I've read on here. Got into softcore/ late night stuff as a young kid in the midst of ADHD and emotional issues. Nudity seemed to fix everything. Then it was a dial-up connection, then high-speed porn whenever my family wasn't around, then just spending time in my room alone with my laptop.
I grew up to have an active sex life and substance abuse issues. My dependence on drugs, sex, and alcohol lead me to AA and I'm now 4 years clean and sober. Through my 12-Step work I was able to change my relationship with sex and women, but my dependence on porn continued.
I never experienced PEID, but I have noticed a dramatic decline in my sex drive when I'm using a lot of porn and my overall energy and motivation takes a hit too.
I'm ready to be done with porn because I don't like the person who I am when I'm using it and I don't like how much of my time and energy it consumes. Most of all, I want to be free of the obsession that, to me, isn't any different from the other addictions I've struggled with in my life.
Thanks for reading. I'm grateful for the support of this forum.
Day 4
I'm over the "three-day hump." I can tell you first hand that that's a real phenomenon. My strongest cravings so far were yesterday (day 3) and today feels easy compared to the past 3.
>Feeling very moody and restless. I know this will pass, trying to take it easy.
>Have been dealing with some porn fantasy. Had a porn dream last night.
>Getting to sleep hasn't been easy.
>Meditating and exercising more than usual to keep my head straight.
>This first week (maybe 2) I intend to go PMO free as kind of a reset. I can already M without porn, but I don't want to default to porn fantasy. I'm going to hold off until just the sensation is enough.