motai63
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I am new to this and am trying to deal with my addiction to porn. It's been difficult since my wife is going through menopause. My drive is very healthy but she can not very often help me to satisfy my desire. We always had a very active sexual relationship and now it is mostly non existent. I used to get enraged when she was not up to the task, but since I've started watching porn on a nightly basis, I don't even try to get close to her. It's easier to accept that she is probably going to say no so I just wait til I go to my room, turn on my porn and masturbate. I have been doing this on a nightly basis for several years now and I finally told her about it because I have been ignoring her and even lashing out with insults and just outright meanness. I have sought out a counselor that I see once a week and have been successful so far at resisting the urge to watch porn and masturbation without porn. I did have a couple of relapses though, I have only looked at porn twice in the last three weeks. I have noticed that I haven't been looking at other women in a lustful nature as much, but I am fearful that if things don't change between my wife and I that I will attempt to seek sexual attention from someone else. Right at this moment I am thinking about looking at porn but I know it won't help. I need some suggestions as to what to do during these times of temptation and frustration. I know that if I go masturbate I won't feel any better about myself. Please help!!