4th reboot

Trying another reboot after four others. I think I am destined to a life of boot and reboot. But this time I will allow myself MO but definitely no porn. Maybe MO while imagining a pretty real girl will get my brain okay with enjoying sex with a real girl. Certainly porn does not.

Well done for getting back to it.  Don't write yourself off as destined for boot and reboot.  Addiction is like that, stop-start, but something can click, and you can do always do things differently.  Never give up on lasting change - we all have the capacity for that.  Good luck.

Keep trying gunner! This is one potent, free, which makes it all the more potent, drug that?s extremely difficult to kick but I believe it can be done. I don?t judge anyone for how many times they?ve fallen off the wagon because I?ve probably fallen off more than anyone. Let?s see, 40 years times about 365 days a year is equal to around 15000. Probably more than that because there were some days where I?d vow to quit after a session and end up falling again just hours later. I guess I ended up just saying God?s gotta take this thing from me, I can?t do it. But when I learned about what was happening to my brain because of porn something changed in me and went for almost 3 years on the wagon. But once an addict I guess always an addict and somehow fell again. Anyways sorry to ramble on but just want to encourage you, keep going, keep trying, keep fighting. It?s an incredibly tough battle but and every victory counts for something.

4th reboot? sometimes i have 4 relapses in 2 days. im in the boat with @hope2reboot. i, too, sometimes feel ever so strongly that my last relapse is my LAST one, but somehow end up relapsing again a few hours later. after few years, shit adds up to 100s or 1000s of reboots.

its a bad sign that you think you are destined to failure after 4 relapses. thats being too hard on yourself. its not even 4 relapses, its 3 relapses because this is your 4th reboot so not even 4 relapses (as if it makes any difference in the end). i see where you will struggle. you are too strong on yourself. or maybe you dont understand whats the big deal of porn addiction? its not easy to quit so if you take it very lightly you will fail for sure. its not a bad habit, its an addiction. YBOP is your friend if you dont understand the effects on brain, how addiction works and things like that.