I have been watching porn since before I could masturbate and the porn I have been watching has gradually become more extreme. Not even just more extreme it seems to constantly morph and has included; cartoon-sex, voyeurism, rape, incest, transexual-porn, gay-porn...I even looked for bestiality at one point this is the first time I have ever admitted to any of this but after researching it became clear I was not just some complete weirdo, that this follows a set pattern of behavior. I would never engage in any of the kind of sexual activity a lot of the porn I was watching depicts and am 100% hetero-sexual..my difficulty hasn't even been ever present, I had problems from the ages of 18-20 but still managed to sleep with a couple of women, I then had a year long relationship with no problems at all.
She cheated on me so we broke up and then a year later I met a girl I liked and was unable to maintain my erection. I had sex with her successfully several times over the course of 9 months of seeing her, and she was very understanding of my difficulties yet I still think it is this which stopped us from ever being together as a couple. I would sometimes be capable of performing but sometimes would go limp, is this consistent with porn induced ED? I think the initial problem caused even more anxiety which in turn resulted in more problems including PE to add to my problems. I was destroyed when I saw her this weekend and completely reverted to being a flop. It feels so pathetic. The worse thing is looking back on my 9 months with this girl who was amazing and perfect for me in everyway is that I have to admit she was so patient and understanding, and at the end of the day if i was in her position, I wouldnt want to be in a relationship with someone incapable of having regular healthy sex. I've completely accepted Ive lost her for good which kills me and tbh cant bear the embarrassment of even trying with her again. This wouldnt be a problem if I wasnt terrified of the same thing happening again in the future with a less understanding, different girl. I have been watching porn at addict levels for years now, I guess my question is has anyones ED come about almost randomly after long periods of excessive porn use? I used to blame my ex cheating on me for the development of ED which makes me wonder if it is infact porn related. Regardless I am trying to reboot now as even if it dosent help with my ED (which Im praying every day it does), the kind of porn I have been watching in recent years is frankly disgusting and I often feel disgusted with myself afterwards. Anyway after "being weak" twice already today(I am very down following the weekend) I am deleting all porn from my computer and starting my reboot tomorrow. I shall try to update on here and hope it will keep me on this path. I plan to exercise (jog/go gyym) to deal with cravings but am worried as I am trying to quit smoking at the same time.
She cheated on me so we broke up and then a year later I met a girl I liked and was unable to maintain my erection. I had sex with her successfully several times over the course of 9 months of seeing her, and she was very understanding of my difficulties yet I still think it is this which stopped us from ever being together as a couple. I would sometimes be capable of performing but sometimes would go limp, is this consistent with porn induced ED? I think the initial problem caused even more anxiety which in turn resulted in more problems including PE to add to my problems. I was destroyed when I saw her this weekend and completely reverted to being a flop. It feels so pathetic. The worse thing is looking back on my 9 months with this girl who was amazing and perfect for me in everyway is that I have to admit she was so patient and understanding, and at the end of the day if i was in her position, I wouldnt want to be in a relationship with someone incapable of having regular healthy sex. I've completely accepted Ive lost her for good which kills me and tbh cant bear the embarrassment of even trying with her again. This wouldnt be a problem if I wasnt terrified of the same thing happening again in the future with a less understanding, different girl. I have been watching porn at addict levels for years now, I guess my question is has anyones ED come about almost randomly after long periods of excessive porn use? I used to blame my ex cheating on me for the development of ED which makes me wonder if it is infact porn related. Regardless I am trying to reboot now as even if it dosent help with my ED (which Im praying every day it does), the kind of porn I have been watching in recent years is frankly disgusting and I often feel disgusted with myself afterwards. Anyway after "being weak" twice already today(I am very down following the weekend) I am deleting all porn from my computer and starting my reboot tomorrow. I shall try to update on here and hope it will keep me on this path. I plan to exercise (jog/go gyym) to deal with cravings but am worried as I am trying to quit smoking at the same time.