Nacho-Mysticism
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Hello all
I discovered yourbrainonporn.com tonight (can't remember how, now) and I saw the list of example symptoms here: http://yourbrainonporn.com/reboot_your_brain
I realised a lot of them quite possibly applied to me and I took a closer look. The more I read the more I think I may in fact have a problem.
The funny thing is, I never thought I did, but not because of denial. A psychiatrist even asked once if I thought I had a porn addiction, I said I doubted it. He said I'd know it if I did - well, perhaps not!
The thing is, I don't even watch the mainstream stuff, I tried it but never really liked it. I prefer other things and even though I had heard of porn addiction, I always thought since what I looked at wasn't actually *porn*, then it didn't count. It seems I was wrong. It's all still pixels. It's all still not real, right?
The final part to the puzzle was that after recently getting a sexual partner for the first time in my life, I found myself nowhere near as aroused as I thought I would be. It all seems to fit together.
I decided to start my reboot tonight. I started deleting files on my computer and I have not looked at anything this evening. But it's amazing how often you realise you do something when you decide to be aware of it!
Sitting there at my computer, I'd be waiting for emails to download, or Windows to check updates, and I kept catching myself automatically and quite often trying to go back.
That in itself was another eye-opener!
I will try for a 90-day challenge starting tonight and see what happens. I actually hope porn addiction is my problem, even though I can see it's going to be difficult, I will be glad if stopping this madness helps!
I think it's quite possible I have unintentionally done a lot of damage to my life, sexually and otherwise. :-\
I discovered yourbrainonporn.com tonight (can't remember how, now) and I saw the list of example symptoms here: http://yourbrainonporn.com/reboot_your_brain
I realised a lot of them quite possibly applied to me and I took a closer look. The more I read the more I think I may in fact have a problem.
The funny thing is, I never thought I did, but not because of denial. A psychiatrist even asked once if I thought I had a porn addiction, I said I doubted it. He said I'd know it if I did - well, perhaps not!
The thing is, I don't even watch the mainstream stuff, I tried it but never really liked it. I prefer other things and even though I had heard of porn addiction, I always thought since what I looked at wasn't actually *porn*, then it didn't count. It seems I was wrong. It's all still pixels. It's all still not real, right?
The final part to the puzzle was that after recently getting a sexual partner for the first time in my life, I found myself nowhere near as aroused as I thought I would be. It all seems to fit together.
I decided to start my reboot tonight. I started deleting files on my computer and I have not looked at anything this evening. But it's amazing how often you realise you do something when you decide to be aware of it!
Sitting there at my computer, I'd be waiting for emails to download, or Windows to check updates, and I kept catching myself automatically and quite often trying to go back.
That in itself was another eye-opener!
I will try for a 90-day challenge starting tonight and see what happens. I actually hope porn addiction is my problem, even though I can see it's going to be difficult, I will be glad if stopping this madness helps!
I think it's quite possible I have unintentionally done a lot of damage to my life, sexually and otherwise. :-\