raylangivens
Member
Hello guys,
For those who already had a lot of experience helping people rebooting or reading the website, a think my situation is not normal so please help me.
Shorten,I am 20 and I discovered reboot nation 1 and half year ago. During that time (when I discovered the website), I was dating a girl. I never had problems with porn addiction, I was suffering only from PIED and I told her about the problem. She helped me and I had a very good improvement, of course with some roller-coaster effect, which is normal. About 6 months ago we broke up. Then I started having sex with many girls, and about 1 or 2 months after we broke up I started having sex with 50/60 year old womans. I realized that my libido was being way up higher with those than with girls of my age (20/30 y.o.). So I decided to cutt of older woman because i thought that it could decrease my progress with normal girls/PIED (during the time sometimes I was still having to masturbate to get erection). I stopped even thinking on them.
This week, I could not hold it. I stayed like 3 days in row thinking about the sex a had with older womans, and then I had sex with one of them today. The difference between older womans and girls of my age is that my libido is WAY UP HIGH with older womans. With those I stay like the entire day having spontaneos erections, thinking about them (not trying to), and to meet them I don't care about traveling 2 hours of high way, or go after them despite I am stressed or tired. I don't give I damn if they are fat, have scars or don't have all teeths. My libido are always way up high. The only thing is that I feel king of bad after the sex with those.
With girls of my age, I want to and I go have sex but it is not the same. For my lucky, most them are very cute, intelligent, have I nice body, energic, funny, young and everything. But my libido before I meet them is almost zero. The desire of having sex come only during the moment I am with those girls (despite 30/40% of the times I need to masturbate to get erection and then have sex).
I admit that when I used to watch porn, older woman were one of my favorite "actress". But after I started rebooting, I never more watched porn and I don't even have the desire for it; I don't even masturbate, my brain already saw that sex will come only with real people. And before me and my exgirlfriend broke up, I never had sex with older womans. Never in my entire life. Sometimes I already had to masturbate with older womans, but it is rare. The thing in this situation is called LIBIDO: when I am alone, in the car, at the work, watching movies or sports, eating, whatever, I almost don't have libido when I think about girls of my age, and then when older womans is my thought, bang: steel erection and even get distracted of what I am doing. Have the REAL DESIRE.
Like I said, I thought that stopping having sex with older woman would increse my libido on young girls. I did it for about 3 months, and it didn't work. I am afraid of wanting to have sex with only older woman for forever of my life. Is that a case of rebooting? Having libido and having sex with older womans could heal my sexuality in general, including girls of my age? Or as much as I think on them or have sex, less libido on other girls I will have?!
I don't know what to do, help!
For those who already had a lot of experience helping people rebooting or reading the website, a think my situation is not normal so please help me.
Shorten,I am 20 and I discovered reboot nation 1 and half year ago. During that time (when I discovered the website), I was dating a girl. I never had problems with porn addiction, I was suffering only from PIED and I told her about the problem. She helped me and I had a very good improvement, of course with some roller-coaster effect, which is normal. About 6 months ago we broke up. Then I started having sex with many girls, and about 1 or 2 months after we broke up I started having sex with 50/60 year old womans. I realized that my libido was being way up higher with those than with girls of my age (20/30 y.o.). So I decided to cutt of older woman because i thought that it could decrease my progress with normal girls/PIED (during the time sometimes I was still having to masturbate to get erection). I stopped even thinking on them.
This week, I could not hold it. I stayed like 3 days in row thinking about the sex a had with older womans, and then I had sex with one of them today. The difference between older womans and girls of my age is that my libido is WAY UP HIGH with older womans. With those I stay like the entire day having spontaneos erections, thinking about them (not trying to), and to meet them I don't care about traveling 2 hours of high way, or go after them despite I am stressed or tired. I don't give I damn if they are fat, have scars or don't have all teeths. My libido are always way up high. The only thing is that I feel king of bad after the sex with those.
With girls of my age, I want to and I go have sex but it is not the same. For my lucky, most them are very cute, intelligent, have I nice body, energic, funny, young and everything. But my libido before I meet them is almost zero. The desire of having sex come only during the moment I am with those girls (despite 30/40% of the times I need to masturbate to get erection and then have sex).
I admit that when I used to watch porn, older woman were one of my favorite "actress". But after I started rebooting, I never more watched porn and I don't even have the desire for it; I don't even masturbate, my brain already saw that sex will come only with real people. And before me and my exgirlfriend broke up, I never had sex with older womans. Never in my entire life. Sometimes I already had to masturbate with older womans, but it is rare. The thing in this situation is called LIBIDO: when I am alone, in the car, at the work, watching movies or sports, eating, whatever, I almost don't have libido when I think about girls of my age, and then when older womans is my thought, bang: steel erection and even get distracted of what I am doing. Have the REAL DESIRE.
Like I said, I thought that stopping having sex with older woman would increse my libido on young girls. I did it for about 3 months, and it didn't work. I am afraid of wanting to have sex with only older woman for forever of my life. Is that a case of rebooting? Having libido and having sex with older womans could heal my sexuality in general, including girls of my age? Or as much as I think on them or have sex, less libido on other girls I will have?!
I don't know what to do, help!
