jakewickersham
Member
Hey i'm Jake. Pretty stoked to be on this forum with everyone struggling with the same problem i've been dealing with for the past like 8 years. Not really sure how to start but just typing this post right now feels great. I've been struggling with porn addiction since I was in 8th grade, i'm currently 21. I first opened my mouth about this and sought out a recovery program back in March. Since then, it's been an everyday gamble. Like a lot of forums i've read on here, I would relapse about every two weeks. I think the longest I've gone since starting the recovery program is like 20 days. Like a lot of you I'm sure can relate to, it's been a fucking nightmare. Since I can remember every time I would get done jerking it to porn, I felt miserable and wondered when the day would come that I wouldn't have to deal with this. I think a lot of people know this same feeling. Back in march, I knew enough was enough and told my dad about my problem. Since then he has been the best accountability partner I could ever ask for. He is the person who gets me back on my feet after every time I have a setback.
On top of my porn addiction, I have struggled my whole life with extremely severe anxiety. About the same time I opened my mouth up about my porn addiction, I took up meditation for my anxiety. I was very doubtful and skeptic about it at first, especially since I was put on meds my whole life and that really just made things worse. I didn't think there was any way of helping me. Hot damn I was wrong. Not gonna rant about it too much but meditation has really helped me in this whole process. Im in no way a religious person but finding some sort of spirituality has helped me out tremendously, regardless of the amount of times I've fallen back into porn. Oh and I started running again and that has been fucking rad, it also helps
So it's been a full day since I last watched porn. I have a feeling this site is also really going to help me. I've been reading forums on here all day and it's been beautiful. The amount of support is such a blessing. Really hope to hear from others dealing with this. Here's to falling down and always getting back up. Cheers
On top of my porn addiction, I have struggled my whole life with extremely severe anxiety. About the same time I opened my mouth up about my porn addiction, I took up meditation for my anxiety. I was very doubtful and skeptic about it at first, especially since I was put on meds my whole life and that really just made things worse. I didn't think there was any way of helping me. Hot damn I was wrong. Not gonna rant about it too much but meditation has really helped me in this whole process. Im in no way a religious person but finding some sort of spirituality has helped me out tremendously, regardless of the amount of times I've fallen back into porn. Oh and I started running again and that has been fucking rad, it also helps
So it's been a full day since I last watched porn. I have a feeling this site is also really going to help me. I've been reading forums on here all day and it's been beautiful. The amount of support is such a blessing. Really hope to hear from others dealing with this. Here's to falling down and always getting back up. Cheers