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My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« on: October 12, 2017, 07:43:19 AM »
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« Reply #1 on: October 12, 2017, 10:42:03 AM »
Day 1

At the moment,I am feeling Okay

I had few urges at around about 10am.

I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away

One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.


Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.

Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life

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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #2 on: October 12, 2017, 10:43:17 AM »
Day 1

At the moment,I am feeling Okay

I had few urges at around about 10am.

I didn't gave these urges too much attention so they went away

One big reason for not fapping is that my fetishes in porn have gone very weird and disgusting.The acts that used to disgust me a few weeks back,are now the ones to which i have started fapping.


Today i did some exercise.Once i get my own room i will start my handstand practice to master the handstand.

Porn and fapping in general has made me an introvert.So i want to quit it for good and move on and improve the quality of my life

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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #3 on: October 13, 2017, 11:32:35 PM »
Day 2

Relapsed!Relapsed due to Boredom! watched a bit if porn in the morning due to boredom and thought that i could get away with watching it just a liitle bit.But No! i ended up watching porn during whole day and then fapped at night.Felt like a shit afterwards.It is a real Trap.Lesson learned peaking = Relapsed.So no more peaking.

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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #4 on: October 14, 2017, 11:07:39 AM »
Day 1
Today i am feeling OK
I did not had any urges today.
I am leaving porn because this shit is disgusting.Girls are being raped and tortured and used as fuck objrcts in thia shit.Watching it means supporting and the more you watch the more you will Go deep into this shithole.My tastes are already becoming too extreme.No more Porn!

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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #5 on: October 15, 2017, 09:16:25 AM »
Day 2

It was pretty decent day.

I had few urges today.Inface,for a moment i convinced myself that i should watch porn and fap because it wont hurt but then i realized that its my addiction that is talking to me and this one fap is what has been causing me social anxiety and Nervousness ehennunder a little pressure. So i stopped.

I am quitting PMo because i want to be calm and relaxed in pressure situations and also while socializing.

Today i did exercise in the morning.

Another day towards becoming best version of myself.

Message to myself:-
Always remember that failure is a choice and nobody forces you to fail.So keep making right choices and dont give any fucks.


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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #6 on: October 15, 2017, 09:13:06 PM »
Day 2

Relapsed.Relapsed After waking up at night after sleeping.Tried very hard not to fap.infact took a cold shower and did 20 pushups but still couldn't sleep.Ended up masturbating in the bathroom after getting naked.Still could not sleep so started watching porn and fapped once more in the morning.

Lessons learnt:-

1 Do not use internet at night.

2 Never ever get naked at night when i am alone.


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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #7 on: October 17, 2017, 05:55:27 AM »
Day 1
A good day.

No real urges

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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #8 on: October 17, 2017, 10:03:53 AM »
Day 2

Today was an Ok day.
had few minor urges but not much.
Did Exercise today.
Slept during most of the day so was a bit lazy.

My eyes look like a dead zombie after PMo.thats one the reasons i wanna quit it.




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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #9 on: October 18, 2017, 08:47:58 PM »
Day 3
A good day

Had a few at afternoon.watched porn for few minutes but then realized wtf i was doing and stopped.

Was feeling tired from yesterday's exercise but did my handstand practice anyway.

Today i found that a big trigger for me is being alone and using internet aimlessly.these two things combine more than not cause me to relapse.so avoid these.
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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #10 on: October 19, 2017, 08:58:05 AM »
Day 4
 A very bad day.

had urges and watched porn during morning and afternoon.Didn't fapped but porn during morning caused me to do a disgusting during evening.Not gonna do that shit thing ever again.


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Re: My Journey to becoming better version of myself
« Reply #11 on: October 19, 2017, 09:07:46 PM »
Day 4
Relapsed